Hyunae's promises

2008-12-10T19:42:00.001+08:00

Its been a month. :D
and im changing blog URL.
:DD.

You know where to find meeeeeee.
(thats if you want it)
:DD

2008-11-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

This blog can go die~ Actually.
But i decided to give it a second life. LOL.

According to my ningning. I should just put.
MY HEART HAS DRIFTED TO CYWORLD. ^^
OR not, it should be said.
THE EVIL MINONS OF CYWORLD HAVE KIDNAPPED MY HEART <3~
So i shall ditch my blogger for quite a long period of timeeeeeeee^^
oh wells.

I am damn sad now~ Byebye!

2008-11-06T01:15:00.008+08:00

A! LOL. Screwed up post, back to edit tomorrow!

2008-11-04T02:01:00.005+08:00

See the white beannie guy? taecyeon from 2pm

U-kiss. guy in black vest is soohyun, beside him, the one you cannot see is Eli! infront is Kibum and alex, then the stripy shirt one is my love. Is the guy infront of my love dongho? LOL

Jewelry, didnt manage to see them clearly though.

And and see, my love. Kevin waving at us

Nick of 2pm! lol. He is damn cute la. like little boyboy. So adorable, his smile, awwww.
Today, spent half my day in the lib with xiujing they all, chatted, ate, and i made my fanboard. Seriously after this korean festival thing, i must study hard le :( lacking so behind. Hias. lol. Hwaiting!
A stupid girl made me wait for her for one whole hour. >.<>

hoho. i got 2 whole days of awesome adventure! lol, 2days of awesome photo :D

(click to enlarge)

Last for one crew. AHHHHHHHHHH~ Fangirl squeals;

Ehh, i love j-killer, ahhhhhh ~ I keep spazing about him, i mean, he is such a hottie! infact all of the bboy are hotties :D, and and i love them, oh oh and they are super friendly can, There all the pics i have, actually i have more. Lol. :X. HAHAHA.

And points to the picture where Min thinks i am a convienent armrest. ROFL.

Gosh, i am love them alot, and i miss them

Last but not least.

BBSG! congrats on being 3rd! although it is 3rd, but you guys did well, in our hearts you will always be first okay? I love you guys!

:DDDD

KPOP IS TOMORROW. I mean LATER!

2008-11-02T04:02:00.004+08:00

Saves the best for the LAST
LASTFORONE!!!

enjoy!!
P.s, sorry for the red board. hahaha

2008-11-02T03:11:00.003+08:00

Miss here has not much voice left. hehehe, even if i have, it hurts talking. XD. I havent been talking like since ever the time i got back. >.< hahah, resting voice.

Anyways, Today, one word only, AWESOME! :X
And and, woooohooooo, BBOY! Wah, super cool leh. First time i see LIVE. LOL. HEHE.
i got 1 min full of it on my phone. Upload in awhile. HAHA. I love joeeeeee. WOOO.
LOL.
Today, BBSG was Awesome, way to awesome. :D
Made plenty plenty friends there.
Haruharu. Woohooo. I shout until no voice le.
LOL. Saw YTing there. :)
HAHA, with her friend she came to support The contest.
HAHA.
Anyways. BBSG TEAM MADE IT INTO THE FINAL. WOOOOOOOHOOOOOO. So high can.
So happy for them lor. HAHAHAHA.:DDDDD
TOMORROW BBSG HWAITING OKAY!!! We wave the board higher. Hahaha.
Sums my lovely and awesome day. Hahah.

Sometimes i wished i didnt need to put up with all the moodless replies. Since i was really upset about it, i blew my top. -.-.

I mean, who doesnt face bad days too. I face it almost everyday. But i put on a smile towards everyone, Who say i am happy. I dont shoe displeasure about it. Even between family quarrels. My parents also what, Just that i dont say only. But still i try lighten the mood. But then now all i get is like lifeless reply. I just dont get it.

I wished i didnt need to put up with all this, but i guess, i shouldnt take it to heart, So i'm fine now. But doesnt mean i'm not angry no more.

Ohyahhhh.

Whitewhitewhite, Tomorrow BBSG shall wear white. HAHAHA.

But i dont have, except class tee, i shall steal some clothes. hahaha. Wooohooo.

Can't wait for tomorrow :X

Yeobo is asleep, noone to chat online.

Aina is asleep, noone to chat in the forum.

Mayguss is asleep, still angry~.

Only Yanting is not, not chatting cos she is busy. LOL

And me, i am obviously blogging.

ScreamScream, i need strepsils. Haha, heads to buy it tomorrow. Woohoo.

I bought my audio technica headphone. Wooohooo.

2008-11-01T04:17:00.005+08:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN.

I actually spelt Halloween as helloween. Lol.

BlackBlackblack, Black coding!
tomorrow is black coding day. AHAH, so morning i am going to buy black NF shorts, cos i am lacking that colour, i have no black pants or short. HAHA, and i found a place where i find the pricing reasonable. LOL. :D
Heading to korea plaza to collect my tickets then over to vivo, meet yeobo and BBSG :D, But i dont know many, so like abit paisei. lol. only know, Ting,Teri and yeobo i guess. :(, but nevermind, can make more friends mah, hahaha. RIGHTRIGHT? HAHAH.
If not i have to go alone, because mayguss mommy promise me then now dont let her go. Lol. Oh wells nevermind. I dont blame her also. HAH

Anyways, Happy Halloween!
Enjoy Halloween day, while i go vivo to shop! AHAH. :)
Morning-nights people.

2008-11-01T02:11:00.004+08:00

Minhwannie's drums sticks. Pwhahaha. Me buy Me buy.LOL

I feel super Blessed today. :D
And its the first time i ever felt this way.
Simply because.
Yesterday i wrote into KTO for the contest on Why u like a particular group and why(in less in 50 words).
And i got a pair of tickets.
All i wrote was.
My favourite Korean pop group is Ft island because they have inspired me that music can mean everything and a way to express myself, Because of Ft island, I have taken up music instruments and have intentions to form a band, because they make a good role model.
Oh, acutally i didnt have hope for this.
Cos i woke up at 3, and i checked my mail, but nothing.
Then i shrugged. lol.
7 plus went to check mail. then got, haha.
blessed right.
Haha.
Then CKT was another one.
I msged it, and figure, it would be like ytd. alot of people.
Then my friend told me i won one pair of tickets too.
So like i was huh? LOL.
HAHA. so yeah. 2 pairs of ticket in a day.
Then i gave ting 3 tickets, cos she and her friend like really want to go badly.
Cos i saw her friend post in forum, Sms 20 + times never get.
Then i also dont like the feeling of people who want to do something yet cannot do. Cos that time i wanted the concert tickets badly too. I kept whinning and whinning. Seriously, how to my yeobo and rest keep up with it? LOL.
So yah, gave her.LOL.
Sold the other, hopefully got people buy $75 only~
ting said she ask her friend.
Hopefully it will sell. Then i can pay off my debt. haha.
Give away, i see her happy i also happy. LOL. IDK WHY.
Everytime i do something for a person and i see them happy, i also become happy. LOL.
That sums up everything.

I hope tomorrow Yeobo will feel better, Lol. :(, no wonder WB nags you alot. LOL. He can nag you for all he wants, but ask him not to nag me. LOL. And please learn to love my JH. LOL. He is not dead, i Dont want to be with a dead corpse can. LOL.

Hmms. Other than that.

I hope YOU all Get into the finals tomorrow. Lol. You have my moral support. hwaiting!

원빈-자기아 내일경기행운 아자아자~ 화이팅!! 헤헤호호하하! 나사랑해!

Oh yah, speaking about today, I recieve a weird call. >.<

Someone called me, so this was the convo.

Me: Hello. May i know who is this.

She: hello, yes?( i was thinking weird right, she call me then she ask me yes?)

Me: You called my number.

She: Yah, i called this number.

Me: Okay, so?

She: i am looking for subash.

Me: What? I thinking you got the wrong number. This is my number.

She: I am his wife(* LOL, not my problem, i also dont know him laaaa*)

Me: Right, okay, so? This is my number(*i was pissed*)

She: i called 93397370.

Me: Right, So you got the wrong number. (*LOL*)

-she just hanged up the bloody phone, and didnt say sorry, like Wtf? She still tsk me. LOL. Eh, cannot get ur husband then my problem uh. Lol. You hubby 爱手爱脚 my probby is it. LOL. Still tsk me. Lol, whatever. I also dont know you for goodness sick!-

Right. NO MORE. lol.

blog too much today.

2008-10-31T05:26:00.002+08:00

I'm going to sleep nowwwwwww.
Waiting for my brother to come back. But it never seems to come. So ya. enough of waiting.
If not i'll wake up late tomorrow again.
Add things into the wishlist.
I saw minhwan's signature engraved drumsticks and i wanted it so much, and told myself.
Lucky it was only signture drumsticks.
Can you imagine if i saw Jinnie,binnie,hunnie signature engraves bass or guitar.
Next day u will see a mad cordelia begging for money. >.<
Anyways, i hope to get minhwanie drumsticks. :D

-yawnning away

2008-10-31T02:43:00.002+08:00

BLOGBLOGBLOGBLOGBLOG.
Actually i am lazy to blog, but i see ting blog, i also want to blog.
but i dont know what to blog about.
So i am blogging crap.
does it make sense?
It doesnt.

anyways. i spent 3/4 of my day hibernating. until 5pm.
Woke up and make bluberry muffins.
pass some to my friends.
HAHAH.
i hope they like it.
>.<
Nothing much, came home.
Chat.
and watch videos.
I cannot wait for 4 nov.
Time flies so fast.
And its my end of holidays. hahahaah.
Oh wells.

2008-10-30T04:04:00.002+08:00

As u can see the time.
I tried waking an idiot who i called for 7 times, then she finally woke up.
You know who u are. >.<, arse, i am not calling anyone anymore!!

Chatting with Ting, and we were using sharpay. Anything thats got to do with Sharpay.
Ting: Bigger is better, Sharpay said.
Me: Sharpay my butt. >.<

Okay, no more sharpay.
Cos i said.
Sharpay says bigger is better, So if she doesnt shut up, i will make her smaller. >.<
Please dont learn sharpay.

i still have no intention of sleep. Hungry~

2008-10-30T02:38:00.005+08:00

My Poly life (Photoalbum :D)
Anyways, the photos are there.
Pool outing.
Movie outing.
All can find there.

Lol.
Nothing much.
went to watch high school musical,
Cried sia. I cannot believe watching HSM3 can make someone cry. LOL.
Went shopping with ting and jolin.
Headed to have dinner, which ended up me only eating.
*looking like a pig*
Camwhored.
Trained home.
chatted online.
uploading photo now.
Stupid photoalbum making me mad. LOL.
Anyways.
Yeobo!
Take care. Dont fall sick. binnie and Hk will be sad. :)
Nights.

-
Sometimes i wonder if u are saying me.
*keeps wondering*
Well if u are, just tell me lor. LOL.
If not is just senstivity catch up with the slow me

2008-10-29T02:38:00.002+08:00

Went to meet w25f people today. So long since our outing.
went Amk pool :)))).
Aww, basically, the trip was awesome.
The girls know why and i know why.
Xiujing. Next time when ur ball gets pocketed, i will clap for you.
Muahahah.
No need Mr.cool.
Got mr.cute can le. Woohooo.
Muahaha. hahahah. ahhahahah. hahahah.
Okay, i am mad.
But i cannot help it.
Lol.
After that. went home.
Chat online.
Yay! i am finally back with jinnie boy.
lol.
Okay.
i think laopo feel asleep already >.<
She so tired.Sleep early laaaaa.
Love ya
:)
Out tomorrow again.

2008-10-28T03:34:00.003+08:00

Can u believe what i am doing now.
I am fighting with Wonbin. Lol.
At 3.36AM in the morning. :X
Anyways, i will start blogging here from today onwards too.
Although it will start to become more random and random.
But come here often.
Pretty please. hahahaha.
i know u all like here better.
How is the skin? Nice?
I made a little few changes here and there.
HAHA.
Anyways. Gotta catch some sleep.
I love yeobo alot.
And, no matter what i love her.
HAHA.
This blog is convient for all my little loves~
Need to wake up early tomorrow. :X

2008-10-20T22:56:00.003+08:00

THIS BLOG IS UNDER GOING BIG TOOT RENOVATION! LOL.
I WILL ONLY UPDATE WHEN I AM DONE WITH MY BLOG SKIN!
HAHA.
Meanwhile, Can you all go my livejournal and tag me.
If not i will be bored.
http://hyunaeandmehmeh.livejournal.com/
COME OKAY.
FLOOD MY BOARD. LMAO.

2008-10-19T15:11:00.002+08:00

You know, i actually typed alot of crap here?! Then, the page couldnt load, now i need to retype? Damn it. LOLL.
Anyways, my blog is dying effectively!! :)
HAHAH.
Nothing much this week, as usual, headed to school on thrusday, stayed home on friday.
LOL.
UT was shyt like always.
And i finally manage to understand mathematics, like finally?! HAHAHAHHA.
I am dim witted laaaa. what you expect? AHHA.
And i think got B. BBBBBB. Always B.
LOL.
So much for understanding? .__.
HAHA.

Stayed home friday~
Was thinking whether should go school, but NOPE.
LOL. I seriously should stop skipping school~
If not i cannot graduate.
Went out in the evening.
Went nbss exhibition
Had quiet a life there, meeting the old friends
The runaway was, er, no comments. So was the dance.
Headed to Sunplaza, slacked for 15 mins. headed home.
Discussing about the Chalet thing, decided to change date again, change to decemeber *Big Sigh*
HAHA, must reschedule everything again. Oh wells. Nevermind about it.

Saturday was nothing, except the damn bloody !#$^&* constructors was effing irritating? fancy drilling 9.30 in the morning, ended up i woke up at 10.30, KNS, haha, went out, the whole day. Then had dinner at harbour front, played acarde, wahhh, so long didnt step in, play the ball throwing game, At least got 8 games on it my hand now, machiam going to drop off le. hahaah. came home, chatted online.

Sunday, i woke up at 3pm, lmao. HAHAHAHAHA. i slept at 4.30 laaaa. LOL. then went out to CWP, shopping, Decided to buy D80 SLR, hahahaha, finally. soon soon, i will get my hands on it!! Bought groceries, then headed back home, talked online. until now, i am going to sleep. Hahaha. And i found cause i believe song, not the full version though. only 35 secs, but can put as ringtone.

Changed song, Changing blogskin, and adding a new link :), Figure out yourself.

2008-10-15T01:28:00.004+08:00

Ft island MV is HOT. HOT HOT HOT.
LOL.
GOT PART 1 AND 2.
Aww.
Jinnie boy die in the end.
WHYYYYY?! Aigooooooo :(
Heart breaking scene.

AIGOOOOOOO.
And i cannot go for the concert~
Whhhy? Cos you must buy $60 then can get a pair of tickets la.
WTH.
Ytd is $30.
Today become $60.
Shyt them upside down.
!#$%^&.

Me argue with my mummy today again~ whyyyyy?
But, i apologised, it was my wrong to shout.
hwaish.
but we are okay now.
:)

Wah, i cried 3 times today
HAHAHAHA.
1st, watching the MV.
2nd, when i argue.
3rd, was the sweetest thing, yeobo did for me. :)
You, me and rest who it, Thank you yeobo. hahahah
ILOVEYOU!
HAHA.
너무너무 고마워요, 사랑해, 묵묵. <3

2008-10-14T00:39:00.002+08:00

Why is it such a difficult matter to settle?
Why is my decision always ashaken? WHY WHY WHY?
Hais.

Stupid Mnet, such a liar.
My MV leh, i waited for like friging 24 hours~
My Fti laaaaaaaa. :(

One more day closer.

What if one day, this will be the last class chalet i will go? :(

2008-10-13T03:09:00.003+08:00

hmms. nothing much to say.
Just that.
Everyone who gets closer to the blog.
Is closer to the secret someday u will know if it ever happens.

And if you do know,
Please, Take it as a white lieeeeee. :)
I'm sorry.
i still love you all.

Jaejin came? OMO. hahahahah.

AND I WANNA GO FOR THE K POP CONCERT.
WHO KNOWS ANY LG PERSON OR SAMSUNG.
PLEASEEEEEEEE~!

2008-10-12T04:34:00.002+08:00

i should be sleeping. lol. *looks at the time*
But i am afrajd to sleep, afraid to dream.
Coward ehs. lmao.
Hmms. nothing much todays.
Just that.
Nothing hurts as much as to know the truth i guess.
But for once, i didnt cry. hahahaha.
I'm a strong girl~ ahaha :D
ai yoooooooo.
But put bad things aside.
Will be soon long gone.
If you know what i mean for some of my good friend who know about it. :)
Eh, you all know le, dont sad leh -.-
Make me sad only.
朋友还能当,就算不在身边.
:)

2008-10-11T01:12:00.002+08:00

I know you all do read this.
But all i wanted was a clear answer.
And just be frank with me.
When i ask, all decided to ignore me.
So its true lor?
Then i got nothing to say already.
i treated you all as friends, and i would always do.
If i had any faults then i am sorry.
I have nothing else to say already.
I will reflect on myself.
If its what all of you all meant.

2008-10-10T02:51:00.002+08:00

Knowing them, doesnt give them the rights to be insenstive. You feel its a joke, but it never happen to you. My wish my thinking, i am the one getting hurt not you.
Bye.

2008-10-09T02:32:00.002+08:00

Why of all days must i go read someone livejournal to spoil my joyous mood?! hahaha. another stupid me. i like doing things randomly and regret later. ahahahha.
Anyways. in response to that post about being fat and stuff, i shall say my piece :)
So what if i am fat, does it concern you? Its not of all of your business okay. What wrong with being fat, Dont like dont be my friend la. dont need to talk behind my back. Dont tell me is a joke only, so what? insensitive people. Whether i turn into a ugly freak or not is also none of your businesses. so just bug off la.
Done. Said my piece. Unhappy, dont read lor. Read le also too bad lor.
hahah, because of that i dont feel like going for the art exhibition although i miss some of my girls there, but because of this, i decided to give it a miss, and go out with my yeoboie. :D, at least they dont say things to dampen my mood, and learn to accept each other.
From morning till now, i am soooooo tired lmao. ahha, morning i really got pissed off. Like talking to the wall like that, talking to all the walls. Like kena treated invisible, but after break 2 like okay le. still was unhappy. :(, stupid faci wronged me of playing in class and downgraded me. then said, if i continue playing with my friend's hair, further downgrade, Wtf?! haha, downgrade then downgrade lor, Also not my fault what, she wronged me then downgrade me, my problem meh *send complaint letter* muahahhaha. oh well, in her class be guai kai lor.-.- hahahaha.
Making collages nooooow, sharing with yeobo, and she still calls me bais, cos of the photos inside. hahahaha. eeyerrrrrrrrrr. hahahaa. i am fair~~
HAHA. i am glad teri is happy with the webiie i gave her, now she can view all her double Ys, DS and teddy! hahahahaa.
Nights~

2008-10-08T23:05:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.
I KNOW ITS 2 DAYS LATE, BUT I REALLY REALLY WANNA SHARE A GREAT NEWS.
MY LITTLE DONGSEANG HAS WOKE UP. :D!
It has been a month since she went into coma. Finally i have been praying and praying for her to wake up and she really did. Although she doesnt remember a single thing or person or herself, neither can she really see. But most importantly is she woke up, she really did. I just needed to believe more, everything can happen when you believe right? :)

Okay, so for now the personal messages.

Yeoboie.
When i heard the news, i remembered you were the first i told. you were the first i wanted to rant to, i havent known for a month at the point of them, yet it felt like it has been years, though the forum, through the spazzing to everything you joked and laugh around with me, i have come to known a great yeobo like you.Its nothing someone or something that could ever replaced in my heart, You and teri were the first to console me, the first to make me really laugh ever since that inccident, although i dont know how to express how i really feel now, other then happiness, i really want to thank you a lot, not only for that cake, but also many things you have done for me, always being there by my side when i really needed someone to talk, play irritating games with me, put up with my nonsense, forced you to give up on jaejin, but without you, i dont know what i would have been, Lost i guess, u pulled me up when i fall, you created the best medcine which was laughter, you encourage me,you were always there, bad or good. Thank you very much, for being my friend. i still wanna say i love you a loooooot. and i hope there will be plenty plenty days ahead :D

Teri my son.
I know it sounds cheesy, hahahaha, Firstly thanks alot, you were one who consoled me, The one who told me, eating something sweet would make someone happy, and if i couldnt smile like daesung, then try smiling like seungri, you and xing bought me my favourite chocolate cake even if you didnt know it was my favourite, does this count as great minds thinking alike? hahaha. Although you are having your Os this year, yet you are still there to entertain me, being busy and stuff, sorry i couldnt help you with any subjects. thank you, many many thanks, i dont know how many thank yous i would it will to built up the things you all have done for me, but it will be never ending if i were to type here. Thank you for letting me know how much a friend means to me. i love you~ <3

Jolene
Hello! Thanks girl, for consoling me, making me believe that everything could happen, always giving me positive thinking and not negative ones. We arent that close now, i know, but still, you were there for me, smiliarly, i would be there for you if you needed me. Thank you for letting me share my saddness and happiness with you. i love you too. :)

Charis.
Aww. i knew you really a short time, even shorter then zh. Haha. But u kept me in prayers also my friend in prayers. Thank you very much. I dont know what to tell you. hahaha. i see you almost everyday, everything i wanna tell you have been told. And btw, i am a happy girl now. hahaha. :D love you~ more then him.

Hmms; and to unknown people who kept maggie in prayers thank you. :D, this one month of constant prayer has paid off already, but do continue praying for her. Thank you. :DDD

Lastly but not least. *takes a bow* much much thanks. THere are so many thanks i wish to say to you all, but it would be never ending. I know i am bad at expressing such cheesy thing, i dont know if you all felt it, but it all came from the bottom of my heart, nothing could expression the gratefulness and gratitude towards all of you. Thank you. :)

2008-10-08T03:02:00.001+08:00

Sitting on the bus, i plugged in my earphone and started hearing the music play. Then i started thinking, i ask God many things. About everything i wanted to ask. Just suddenly a question dawn to me.
"Would you ever fall in love with the person your good friend likes?, and you know it.?"
I know i won't,that is very certain.Because i felt it when it actually happened to me countless of times. Somehow the feeling feels so unbearable. And it wont be something i want to do to a good friend. :)

God made me think a lot today, He placed me in a test. Today was a day i smiled the most anyone could smile. Each smile was a happiness found inside my heart, and becuase of this smile, i am able to be certain he would make me happy always.

Today was super random, i starting saying i love you to alot of people. :D. And Yeobo called me random today, Xiujing called me hyper like someone confessed to me, jolene gave me a smilely face. Teri was focusing on her Yesung and laughing gas. I was feeling happy, my heart felt light, Everything felt so right.

I am still in my path of asking and seeking god for the right choices. And i am so glad i did. : D
Nights~

A week more to FT island new album~

2008-10-07T14:50:00.003+08:00

This would be the last post i ever want to argue about.
If you think that way then you do.
No point aruing about it, when end up, people would always thinks its my fcuking fault.
i had enough. You think i dont have hard time dealing with my friendship, dont make it sound like you are the only one facing the fcuking problem. And last time if you let go, i probably wont even feeling anything, because its does not exsist already.you always said u wanted to visit me in my school during your holidays. but you didnt, Dont give me and excuse your mum doesnt let you out, when u could go out with your friends, you can, Even during my school days i went over to tampines to find you. I was tired also, have you ever thought about that. Think about it. Why dont you say, you turned into a person i didnt like too. What the point in a friendship when they cannot accept each changes. A person itself will never see thier own flaws, so even if did say u push blame to me, no one would admit. I ddndt broke the trust, You broke it unsoundly. You Didnt lose me, you let go of me time after time unknowningly. And if you needed me, I wont feel so lonely and lost last time when you have your newly found friends. The reason now, is because i got people by my side, they wont abondon me even with they new friends. Because i believe.
Bye.

2008-10-07T02:55:00.007+08:00

Well well, some pics. hahaha. Of cos u know me is meeeeee. haahah. that girl is Jie! And the other 2, one is Eric one is Zhenghao~ hahaha. i used picasa to make a collageeeee. ahhaah. so nice

2008-10-07T02:43:00.003+08:00

Just recently, i played a game with Yeoboie, HAHAHA, Super fun game, which was making story out of songs. HAHA. super funny la. and well the story turn out weird~ hahahaha. This was our story. all in CAPS are the SONGS.

Oneday in the morning her alarm rang, EVERYBODY STAND UP STAND UP, EVERYBODY WAKE UP WAKE UP~ but she didn't want to get up because SHE CAN'T GET ENOUGH of THIS SONG After tossing and turning, she decided to get out of bed and started humming FT ISLAND. And said the weather was SO HOT she went to the toilet and began to wash up as she looked at herself in the MIRROR. while brushing her teeth,her phone rang, she picked up, and went "hello hello?", And a old man talked to her saying "can i MARRY U", so she freaked out and shouted WRONG NUMBER. The old man kept saying he didn't get the wrong number, and continued to say ridiculous stuffs like, "I GOT YOU~~ UNDER MY SKIN~~~". Stunned and completely grossed out, she hung up the phone immediately Her phone rang again, and she picked it up, And there was the familiar voice saying" i got ONLY YOU, and i am getting all my Courage to PROPOSE to you, why wont you accept me. I will WAIT for you, UNTIL YOU RETURN to my heart." she hanged up, and shouted "this is TOO MUCH" .she called her friend right away and started to ask for help, "OH MY FRIEND! There's a disgusting person that keeps calling and saying nonsense to me! TELL ME what should I DO (rain)?!"

She UNLOCK her house door and walk out, meet agreeing to meet her friend the nearly cafe, Where she saw her boyfriend with another girl, And she shouted "HEY!", her boyfriend turn, And she said," i thought you were the only ONE", And she started to BREAKDOWN, "I thought WE BELONG TOGETHER, So all this are LIES?, I AM A FOOL", "NO! Listen to me jagiya. There's nothing between us. I only have YOU! ALWAYS!" He tried to explain while holding her hand, but she shrugged it off. "GEOJITMAL!" and she began to head for the door, wanting to get out of the cafe as soon as possible. "KAJIMA, KAJIMA!" That was what she heard before leaving the place.

At walked along the street wandering where there was NOBODY, and sat at the bus stop, suddenly a hand handed her a packet of tissues, and a voice said "HEY!GIRL", she took the packet of tissues and look up, only to see, her best boy friend, she STAND UP and HUG him. While hugging him, she said "I BELIEVE he was MY DESTINY, But i guess i am wrong, this was all a SAD PROMISE." "I should FORGET OUR MEMORIES"

He consoled, "Cheer up! That BAD BOY doesn't deserve such a good girl~ You need a CANDY? or BALLOONS? or do you wanna go for a MERRY-GO-ROUND?" She pouted and said, "you think i'm LIKE A CHILD?" "Anything for MY LITTLE PRINCESS!" He teased. She broke into a smile after hearing that. "THANK YOU!"

I told myself BYEBYE and to LET IT GO and started a fresh, ,The guy infront of me, making me TRYING TO SMILE, has ALWAYS been there for me, DONT KNOW WHY, but whenever i am sad, he would always be there. Somehow it feels like TELPATHY, and also my SECRETBOY486, Deep down inside I have always had a SECRET, having feelings for him. ONCE AGAIN(Cho sing sung), i WISH i can tell him i want to be FORVER WITH YOU and that you are 10 OUT OF 10, LOOK AT ME ONLY, cos i will be there for JUST YOU.

"HEY YO (BATTLE), LADY? Why are you looking at me in a daze?? DAYDREAM? Don't tell me you are FALLING IN LOVE(1TYM) with me?" He teased again. ,"WITH U (BB)?! A-HA (IVY)! Of course not! LALALA~" I coughed. "DON'T BE SHY(KARA).. You know, seriously... I have always been wanting to tell you this.. I LOVE YOU (NAVI). IT'S TRUE (EUN JI WON). I hope you can give me a chance. I'll protect you. I'll not let any TROUBLEMAKER harrass you. I'LL GIVE YOU EVERYTHING. Please be MY GIRL.." he confessed. I just have to say... TIME TIME, THIS LOVE is gonna be FOREVER LOVE. Indeed, LOVE IS DELICIOUS. ^__^

With that I took his hand and said "LUV U, i be your baby girl and you will BE my BABY BOY. i will BELIEVE IN LOVE again, cos you are my WONDERBOY. YOU & I, THE STORY HAS JUST BEGUN, and i will RUN with you forever, Because this is our DESTINY OF LOVE, LOVE IS you, all this while, your EXSISTENCE have always STAND BY ME, just that i was too blind to see it,YOU made my BEAUTIFUL LIFE glow again. DAY BY DAY we will DANCING OUT, because we are HAPPY!(sg wannabe)."

He look back at me, smiled and said." you will ALWAYS be MY GIRL,because you are my EVERYTHING, IN YOUR SMILE, i see HAPPINESS, When there is rain, We wll RUN under the UMBRELLA(epikhigh) TOGETHER, With smiles on our face. Thank you for giving LOVE another chance AGAIN, you will the ONE FOR ME

He leaned forward and gave her a KISS(sg wannabe) , And it started to snow, This was the FIRST SNOW.

2008-10-07T02:23:00.003+08:00

Actually i need i sleep, i have test tomorrow, and i doubt i can wake up~ hahaha
School as usual.
Camwhored in class, more like, me and Jiejie! haha then we dragged Korkor and Zhenghao also
later i'll put some up~
headed home after school.
And And that Yunho look alike sat beside me in the BUS. woohoo. He looks super cute sleeping moving side to side. haahahah. : D
My feets were aching when i reached home, and it was full of blisters. Gahhh, lol.
When to block 418 there to eat, had my fuzzy welly hair cut and had dinner also.
Came back, chat alittle, Fell asleep. hahah. Woke up at 10.30.
Then Chat with My loves.
Teri and her yesung fandom. hahahahaha.
Yeoboie and er money lenders?
Zhenghao and his teachings
Teri was trying to make me happy, and she actually did laaaaa. i love youuuu. gah, i sound corny lmao.
Zhenghao did actually help with enterprise, and made me understand quiet a fair amount, Much much thanks~ ahhhaha.

2008-10-07T01:18:00.002+08:00

Phew, i need to relax, before i can actually write a utterly horrible post. : D
Actually. i feel like scolding vulgarities. But then the whole blogpost would have full of vulgarities. But then a post of vulgarities might be better in the case, if not i will start to put reason hurting words inside.

So in a sense, you are just bloody trying to get back at me la. Well, congratulations, you did well then, Dont bring my Friends into this, You dumped me for YOUR friends, so dont bring my friends into this, they dont know anything. Dont make it sound like I am the one at fault, Because i am not, YOU DUMPED ME FOR YOUR NEW FOUND FRIENDS, YOU LEFT ME FIRST. When i still treated you as a bestfriend, where were you, Busy with your work, Hanging out with your new friends, Those were merely just excuses, Then me? Did you fcuking care. Well, NO, You said i treated you like a tool, but what kind you dont know,Cos i never treat u like one, Let me get this straight to the point, You were treating me like a tool, What kind of tool, let me tell you again, When u have no one, you come Find me, i am someone item where u can place on the shelf and when u didnt have anything to play, then u pick me up. What in the world was this, You said you loved me as a bestie, Who puts a bestie in the last place, You would be the first one i see. I have NEVER left you in the lurch, everything you like, or wanted, i would always tried giving you, even when u and me drifted, Things turned out this way, cos you made turn out, when things get ugly, You push all the blame to me, Making it wound sound like i am at fault, and you never admit to it. And what, i have to swallow everything, cos people still decide to believe you. I admit i started the whole friendship arguement, Why did it start in the first place, and what was the root of th problem, you never tired finding. I Dont need fake "haha"s or whatever, Because i am sick and tired of it, All this while, Please just admit, you have never been true to whatever u feel about me. From that day u told ever told me, " You are tired of telling nice things i wanna hear", All this became fake, cos you decided to tell me all the nice things i wanted to hear, not the truth. There is no point carry on even become friends, when there is no trust in between. I have enough stepping on my head, Now, it'll ever happen.
你走你的阳关道,我走我的独木桥
Blame myself for being stupid to even start talking.

2008-10-06T02:06:00.004+08:00

Gahhh. hello!
hahahahaha
Stayed at home the whole day and i mean the whole day means the whole day~
hahahha.
Anyways, i woke up at 3pm. Want go where also?! ahahha.
I pratically chatted on msn the whole day.
Played Age of empire.
Explore guitar pro5.
Woots. i finally know how to play the guitar already.
And i am on my journey of playing Thunder by Ft island.*Insert grin smile*
Hahahahahha.
Surfed the soompi.
And guess what made me stone for almost an hour
UKISS IS COMING SINGAPORE.
LIKE wooots!
ROFLMAO. is finally i can see kevin, and kibum. : DDDDDD.
Like totally loved.
Hopefully. got backstages passes~ i wanna get one for yeobo and meeeeee. ahahah.
Anyone wanna join going to meet them?! ahahah. Msn me please. The more the merrier!
Hahahaha.
shall wear my mokey shirt and pants to school tomorrow with my new high cut~ hahahha.
Ft is loved. especially Jaejin. <3

2008-10-05T02:58:00.000+08:00

Its my 70th post!! hahahaha.
:)
I am in Super good mood today.
Guess also can guess right. hahahaha.
No more Emoish cordelia.
Happy anot?! ahhahaha.
Hope so!

I went shooooping.
and spent like, Cashies. lmao. Broooke.
Got $75-$100 bucks bah. OMGOMGOMG.
I come home then realise lmao. hahaha.
Bought. Lingerie, 2 sets. thats like $ 30 plus bucks.
Then a pair of disney Highcuts, LOL, extra collection to my shoes. lmao. hahahaha. That is like $15 bucks, cos it was on offer. Great buys~
Then 2 baby milo shirts. hahaha, about $15.
Games $7.50
Guitar instructor Cd. $7.50
Adobe photoshop Cs3 $7.50.
LMAO. all imitation, lol, but who cares, can use can le, hahahaha.
Hahaha. some bits and pieces here there also alot of contribution.
But i forgot to buy my slippers~.
ahahahaha.
Eh, i count my shoes already feel so shocked. i should stop buying, but i cannot resist temptation. Shoes are my feet's life! hahahahaha.
I think my shoe tally is like 1 pumps, 3 heels, 1 snickers, 2 sport shoes, 2 high cuts, 1 slippers, and 2 flip flops.
I still needa buy one slipper. cos one of them the sole coming out. And another pair of canvas shoe, cos they are comfy. Next trip next trip~ hahaha, soooon.
I needa buy a shoe rack already~ ahahahah.

I wanted Baskin Robbins again~
but after dinner i was bloated, where can fit in somemore~ hahahahaah.
Next time Next time, must must eat.

headed home around 9 plus, reached home around 10 plus going 11. ahhahaha.

Hmmms, i really just thought of what i really want,
A electric guitar. Thats like going to Cost me a few hundred bucks.
plus the speaker thingy, another few hundred. My money is gonna fly into dont know where.
But its worth it.. Hopefully by next year!
Also korea next year. Cannot forgeeeeeet. hahahaha.
I want to have a band. With my yeooooboo. hahaha. and some others.
HAHA. Not funny, but its true, although its not a promise, but i am sure if we work hard, a glimpse of hope is always there. hwaiting~ ahhahaha.

hmms, Dear fellow friends. Kindly tell me, whether next time you are in the mood to talk to me online when i talk. Dont half way tell me u unhappy. Then like sound so sian talking to me. Like that i also dont wanna talk. Makes me feel like i am talking to someone for the sake of talking. Dont make it sound like i must be a must must to talk to you also. Pisses me off you know. Whatever~.
And also, i am never going to advice super Stubborn people who seem like they dont wanna listen anymore. makes me pissed tooo. Feel like talking to the wall, Talk to the wall better also. At least, the wall dont make me feel so idiotic. Next time i just better shut my mouth. -.-. Rawr.
SHUT UPP LA.

Yeobo thinks, Shu rackke should be out band name. u know why, Cos we talking about shoes and shoe rack. ROFLMAO~ ahhahaha.
Thats why i love her.

And i think. I shouldnt have talk to someone in the first place, ended up, i am the one feeling pissed when she is in the bad mood. Next time, Anyone, Yeobo, teri, jolene or whoever, please ask me to keep my fingers to myself, i feel i am wasting energy typing crap sometimes. I Just wanted to advice you, since at least i treat u like a friend. But i feel like, i am treated like crap, Maybe i shouldnt have taken iniative la. Sorry to say that, But it makes me look dumb like an ass.

Tomorrow is sunday~ what to dooooo. everyone is going out. yeobo is going to my favourite nooraebang~ Charis is going to Dragonboating. i shall sit at home and play age of empires. lmao. hahahahaha. Nights people~

i just remembered~ i wannnnnnnnnnt to cut my fuzzy welly hair, i just re dyed it the day before~

2008-10-02T00:23:00.001+08:00

I cannot seem to think frigging right now.

i need some time off.

i need to talk to god.

i need help.

my heart is sinking.

My soul too.

Why do i feel so lifeless.

2008-10-01T01:04:00.003+08:00

Gah gah gah gah.
Well well.
Woke up at 9, cooked!
But turn out bad~
Headed to meet the darlings of w2.
then to sentosa.
:)
rained like crap.
So played in the sea awhile.
Then came up.
Crap, slacked, and ate.
Bathe.
Then headed to niho mura for lunch/dinner.
i just i wasnt really in teh good mood, and i pulled a long face because the destination was kinda far.since i wanna going to meet. E3.
makes me feel like a spoilt brat.
Sorry girls.
hais.

Headed to Marina Square to meet my dears of E3.
Haha, i like gong gong, walk round marina.
Haha, only to call and find out they at mac eating.
Haha. then slacked with them.
walked to see f1 route.
then, went to er, walked to the flyer.
then walked back to ms.
they had subway.
then took bus back.
Reach home around 11 plus.
Haha.

Stalkers have no life.
Hahahaha.

Gah, i feel frigging piss la.
Why is everyone giving up their love.
Why?
somehow feels like signalling me to give up too.
I just dont understand la.
Maybe i am just the naive one.
gah.
Pissed.

byeeeeee.

2008-09-30T01:35:00.004+08:00

My Brownies are absolutely yummy.
Hahaha.
I am glad they are.
Gobble gobble.
Next week.
i am going to makeeeeeeeee......
Chocolate chip muffins.
Anyone wants to reserve? hahahaha.
i'll be glad.
hahahahaha. :D
Maybe blueberry tooo.
Cos. Someone loveee chocolate, and he ate almost half my box of brownies.
Thanks loveeeeeeeeee. if u know who u are lmao. hahahaah.
And and
Jolene like blueberry. so maybe yeah. make both.
Hahahaa.
I am glad, two boxes of my brownies are eaten gone. Woohoo.
Hahahahaha.
:DDDDD.
Thanks thanks! ahahahah.

Today was love again.
Haha.
Know where to look out for why. :D.
Nights babes~ And if you are a guy and you read then hunk~

2008-09-29T01:26:00.003+08:00

My lovely brownie cakes are done.
They are loved by meeeee.
Cos they look so nice.
And high possiblity taste nice, hahaha.
I hope the class will like them.
Charis say she will kill me if i dont give her some!
I got 2 boxes la dearie! hahahaha.
:D
If not nice dont kill me okay?! hahahaha.
Nothing much today!
Hectic hectic.
hahaha.

2008-09-28T01:41:00.004+08:00

"Thank you for sending this email. it really kinda made my day. thank you. Don't worry about being helpless either.well just to tell you the current things, she's still in the same condition. the doctors said it's up to her since surgery is only 30% sucessful."

-louis message.

Sometimes, i find it really weird.
I can make people's day.
But i cannot make my own days. lmao.

I hope maggie wakes up.
PALI ERONAAAAAA
Before i make hyungjoon sing the morning wake up call

I once hear charis.If not wrong
she said.
"I can give people advice.
But i cannot seem to advice myself"
Haha.
i feel the same way too.
Its always more difficult to convince yourself what u tell your friend, when u get stuck in the smiliar situation.

I just got defeated by a packet of cupcake Premix.
Damn it.
OMG. that damn shocking can.
My first time failed making cupcakes.
Gahhhhhhh. wah lao.
i do baking for so many years, first time!
somemore, is to a premixed box of cupcake.
No face le la.
I should go back to my traditional way of baking.
Which is Start from sratch.
Instead of being lazy and use premix. lmao.
Lesson learnt.
*hides my face*

Tomorrow.
I dont care what.
Also must make cupcakes.
I want to give people one laaaaaaaaaaa.
Boohooo.
i wanna give, my cousins, my relative.
My friends.

Okay. nothing to blog already.
Nightnight.

2008-09-27T02:21:00.001+08:00

Today was love.

ILY.

Take care ayes. : )

Blog tomorrow.

2008-09-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

PEOPLE WHO DONT THINK ALIENS ARE CUTE, SEE THIS.
Hahaha.
Cute alright?!

aiyooooo.
I realised i must stop slacking in my studies already.
I have been late for 2 straight weeks. Lol!
Need buck up le.
Enough of slacking laa cordelia. hahahaa
Still got 1 week moree.
Killer UT starts.
After that no rest la.
I need Tuition!
Eric! Zhenghao! and whoever that can teach me. Kindly doooo help me.
Dont ya know, your sister, "wife", friend, is an idiot.
Too bad she is studying in the same class as u. hahahahaha

Went out.
had KFC with the guys.
Went minitoons.
Someone want eat sweeeeeeeets. hahaha.
Walked around cos i didnt want to go home.
Hahah.
Both was suppose to train back with me to khatib one.
end up, only me and another one.
cos the other one suddenly need to rush home makan, haha.
i wonder how he can eat so much.
yet remain with such a figure lmao.

Should i learn to believe that you dont have feelings for her.
Or was that all a lie?

I HOPE TO WAKE UP TOMORROW.
JAEJIN IS MINE.
IF I CANNOT HAVE HIM, NOONE WILL. LMAO

Same goes for KEVIN. lmao. Nichkun

LEFT:JAEJIN.MINHWAN.JONGHUN,HONGKI,WONBIN

2008-09-24T02:10:00.003+08:00

Gahhhh. Yeoboooo friend Jon is making me mad.

I am going crazy.

i dont think i'll go school tomorrow since i doubt i can wake up.

MORE SLEEP TIME.

PONTANK.

Me naughty girl la can.

And i dont speak Alien linggo, stupid Jon. pfft. lmao.

Aliens are cuteeee. : )

I need time off man. I am going mad from my surroundings.

2008-09-23T22:31:00.004+08:00

1. If you HAD to get a tattoo, where
would you want it?:
-.I would never get one.lmao

2. If you HAD to dye your hair which
color would you choose?
- brown. Lol. Its dyed already!

3. If you HAD to get a piercing (THAT
ISN'T YOUR EARS) what would you
pierce?
- belly button

4. If you HAD to change your name, what
new name would you choose?
Hyunae

The "Would You" Section
1. If you could go bungee jumping,
would you?:
-not if for any circumstances

2. Would you move somewhere else, if
you could?:
- yeppyepp.

3. If you were given the chance to go
to Paris, would you go?:
depending on situation

4. If you found 10 million dollars, and
it was YOURS to spend, what would you
do with it?
-spend some on my parents, save, travel, shop, help charity.

The "Let's Say" Questions

1. Let's say you see a big ship
sink. Only 1 person has a chance to
survive. The 3 people on the ship are
Your Best Friend, Your
Boyfriend/Girlfriend, and
a long lost friend (that you don't know
too well). Who would you save if you
HAD to choose ONLY 1 person?
- Bestfriend .

2. Let's say you became President,what
is the first thing you would do?
- cut down on gantry money, lmao, obviously have longer holidays and short studying time.

3. Lets say you had to eat a live
tarantula for $1,000. would
you ?
- Don’t even think about it

4. Let's say you could star in any
movie (made or in the works) what
movie?
- ehhh, hmmm, no idea.

Your FAVOURITES
1. color/s?
- any range of pink .

2. current song?
- After love-Ft island.

3. shirt you own?
-no particular favourite

4. electronic device(s)?:
- Handphone

5. movie?
- Shrek

6. book?
- ehhhh, no idea

7. pair of shoes?
- levis black red shoe

8. sandal color?:
- purple and brown

9. hair color?:
- light light brown

10. eye color?:
- black

The "Other Stuff" Section

1. what makes your bedroom unique?
- no idea

2. Who do you like?
- people who like me.

3. Do you go to parks?:
- when I feel down .

4. what's your favorite season of the year?
-winter

5. Do you like cheese?:
- alot

6. What's bothering you now?
- nothing much. J

Tagged:
Charis
Teri
Xing
Jolene
Mayguss

Quiz(2)

_______Bests________
1. male friend: Eh, not that I know off.
2. female friend: Yeobo, charis.
3. Vacation: Korea
4. age: 17 yrs and 15 days
5. memory: falling down while playing skii

______Worst________
1. Time of day: 2.30pm
2. Day of the week: Wednesday
3. Food: Ladys finger.
4. Memory: When I fell off a chair. :D
5. Boyfriend or girlfriend: No one.

_______Lasts__________
1. Person u saw: Parents
2. Talk on the phone with: mother
3. Hugged: Charis
4. IM: yeobo

_______Firsts_________
1. Kiss: Parents
2. Serious bf or gf: nopee.
3. Car: haven’t 18
4. First school: His little kingdom
5. Job: LAfon

_______today________
1. What are you doing now: The quiz and music
2. Tonight: Finish my homework.
3. Wearing: Tanktop and shorts
4. what did you eat for lunch: udon
5: Better than yesterday: Similar.

________tomorrow___________
1. Is: Wednesday
2. Got any plans: Study?
3. Goal: Not to think.
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Skits and presentation.
5. Do you have work: Nope!

________Fav's__________
1. Number: 8,6
2: Song: Forget our memories-Xing
3. Color: Pink
4. Season: Winter
5. State: Seoul

________Currently_________
1. Are you in love?: Not really.
2. Dating someone: Nopeeeee.
3. Missing someone: Hah, don’t know, not really
4. Mood: sleepy.
5. Wanting: To audition!

2008-09-23T00:07:00.003+08:00

I just realise how much i can get affected by him.

Sometimes he just scares me.

Sometimes i just dont know what to do.

He uh, when he get emo. me toooooo.

well at least he is back to normal.

:D.

And i am super glad about it.

Seeing him like that. somehow i feel safer.

But.

He just got me real scared.

Hais.

IMY. :)

Schooooly, super emoemo. haha.

but okay le. :)

settle some of the stuffs for chalet and BBQ.

Aww. dearest E36J.

Stay la. Or lose your balls!! lmao.

Okay. that was weird. but who cares. lol.

Hahaha.

i am glad tons are coming over.

hahahaha. :DDDD.

i wanna sleep le.

Thought in the bus.

if one day i really lost you because of ur emoness.

How?

I teared.

Dont ever scare me.

You mean a lot. : )

Poor yeoboooooo.

Dam that bloody fcuking stalker.

Dont stalker her u fcuking ass. Pfft.

Go die.

you stupid cheena. -.-

And go back to cheena with your weird cheena msg la.

2008-09-22T21:23:00.003+08:00

FcukFcukFcukFcuk.
What the fcuk the wrong with this fcuking fcuking house uh.
Fcuk la.

All i asked was for like $20 bucks. or abit of next month allowance.
She gotta scream at me.
Then dont let me work.
What the fcuk she want uh.
Then put all the blame on me.
Say i spend tooo much, when this was the only time is ask her for some fcuking money.
Then still kick me while i sleep.

What the fcuk she want la.

I am not a slave la
Fuck la.

Then complain i spend to much time with friend.
Dont care about the family.
Fcuk la, If i didnt bother.
I wont even care about u all.
I spend like 3/4 my time in the fcuking house.
And u call this i dont fcuking care about the family.

Ask me for friend number.
Give le.
She her phone cannot recieve.
Then she blame me say i unwilling to give.
Blame her fcuking phone la.
Blame me for what?!
Everything also fcuking blame me.
Say if so unhappy just get out of the house.
Kns la.

Fcuk laaaaaaaaaaaaa.

Sorry for my foul language.
I have finally vented my anger.

2008-09-22T01:08:00.003+08:00

"Dont look back,
just turn away,
i know i'll regret it"

Charis told me to give myself a 5 day break from this
think it over
if i really want to do this.
Its hard.

While passing My aunts house today.
I suddenly thought of him.
Since he leave so near.
Just thought of him.
I feel the distance Between me and him.
Things are just not the same.
Imy.

Yesterday.
I went JB and i saw a jokwon look alike. lmao.
The person who did my car film, looked like taek.
LMAO.
Haha, didnt shop much. No money.

Today, nothing much,
Just kept thinking about him.
I shouldnt think so much.
I dont want to.
But if i dont occupy myself.
i will.
I should indulge myself in things man. hahaha.
I'll be happy.

I am off tooooo sleep in an instant! hahaha.

2008-09-22T00:50:00.002+08:00

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog
_______________________________________________

Starting time: 11.57
Name: Cordelia
Sisters: 0
Brothers: 1
Shoe size: 4.1/2
Height: 161.
Where do you live: North.
Favourite drinks: cokezero,greentea
Favourite breakfast:. Soft boiled egg with bread

Have you ever
Been on a plane: Yes
Swam in the ocean: nopeeeee
Fallen asleep at school: Almost always
Broken someone's heart: How would I know?.
Fell off your chair: Yepppp!
waiting for someone to call: Yes, a lot.
Saved e-mails: Yep
What is your room like: garangruni storage room
What's right beside you: bloster
What is the last thing you ate: Somosa and sandwich

Ever had
Chicken pox: Yeps
Sore throat: Of cos
Stitches: Yeps!
Broken nose: Nope

Do you
Believe in love at first sight: Sometimes.
Like picnics: A LOT!.
Who was were the last person
You danced with: LOL. Don’t remember
Last made you smile: Yeobo
You last yelled at: No idea

Today did you
Talk to someone you like: Marcus my cousin
Kissed anyone: my baby cousin.
Get sick: Nope
Talk to an ex: LOL. Obviously not
Miss someone: A lot.
Eat: 2 hours ago
Best feeling in the world: smiling at yeobo's messages
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: 1
What's under your bed: empty space
Who do you really hate: Cheaters.
What time is it now: 12.15

Random
Is there a person who is on your mind now: yep
Do you have any siblings: yes
Do you want children: 2
Do you smile often: Not recently. But yes, cos I have my loves beside me
Do you like your hand-writing: alot
Are your toe nails painted: no
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in: Noone.
What color shirt are you wearing now: White Rp shirt
What were you doing at 7.00 p.m. yesterday: Shopping in malaysia
When did you cry last: This afternoon
Are you a friendly person: quiteeee I think.Unless u provoke me,
Do you have any pets: Yeps! 2
Where is the person you have feelings for right now: Somewhere in Sg.
Did you hold hands with the person who mean anything to you now: No.
Do you sleep with the TV on: Nope.
What are you doing right now: Watching Music bank and Doing this.
Have you ever crawled through a window: I don’t think I can fit through. lmao
Can you handle the truth: Eh, not really.
Are you too forgiving: Depending on how serious the matter is.
Are you closer to your mother or father: both of them
Who was the last person you cried in front of: Noone
How many people can you say you've really loved: Guys terms,0. Family and friends,plenty.
Do you eat healthy: Not. Lmao. See my size
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex: no ex.
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you: yes.
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to: Cry as much as I want.
Are you confident: Not at all.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1. First attended primary school
2. Dancing
3. Making new friends
4. Cried on the first day of school.
5. Got All As for my exam

5 things on my to-do list today
1. Attend school
2. Go out with charis
3. Feel happier
4. Clear my mind.
5. Return money.

5 snacks I enjoy
1. Onion rings
2. Otah
3. Sushi
4. eggs
5. Ice monster

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Give my parents a better life
2. Give money to charity
3. Spend some on myself
4. Visit korea to find my bands.
5. Open a school somewhere that needs it

5 of my bad points
1. Irritate people
2. Not confident.
3. Loves to cry.
4. Super emotional
5. Forgetful

5 people I tag
1. Teri
2.Jolene
3. Charis
4. Mayguss
5. Someone else?

2008-09-21T01:32:00.002+08:00

ROFL.

You can skip this post.

Lmao.

Cos if you dont understand what i said in my previous posts.

Then u wont understand this too!

Times passes real slowly.

Sometime although you feel that time would pass quickly but it wont.

Yesterday i was firm about this two and half years thing.

But today.

I am not sure if i am able to keep it.

I sat in the car. Feeling so empty.

Suddenly, you just popped into my mind.

I had the urge to message you.

But i didnt want to.

I suddenly thought of you.

What would you be doing, this and that.

I felt everything was so difficult.

Somehow i want this to pass faster.

But it seems it wont.

Imy.

I really do.

hais.

Blog today things tomorrow kay...!

Girls!

Please claim your goodies from me.

J-Bubble gums.

Yeobo- Chewing gums, oh oh and dream concert!

haha.

Nights people.

Smile!

2008-09-20T03:00:00.000+08:00

YEOBO ITS NOT A SAD POST LAAAAAAAAAA.
IS TEMPORARY BREAK DOWN! lmao.
hahahahahaha.

Changed my blog song to FTisland sarang Hu ae.
Because this song has super nice meaning.
although its sad.
But it suits me.
Cos it convey alot of meaning.

Nichkhun has a very nice definiation of dancing.
And i am sure it works the same way with music.
Hold on Hold on.
Me go find video. hahaha.

"When i think about dance, i think about the ability to move your boday according too emotions, so by being a good dancer, you are suppose to be able to move your body freely and strongly according to your thoughts."
-nichkhun.

Hahaha.
Watching M.net hot blood. pretty good show leh.
Got one day in it! haahahah.

2008-09-20T01:42:00.002+08:00

"There are moments when i dont know if its real

or if anyone feels the way i feel."

-way back into love lyrics.

This two and half years.

Is gonna be long.

But i'll take it like a test.

I'm sure its not going to feel so bad.

Once promise is made.

This time it wont be broken.

Isnt it better?

I'm sure we both will feel much better.

Although i feel that it hurts

But.

I dont wish to hold on to something which does not belong to me.

Dont question why.

If you know it.

Then you do.

If you dont know it.

Then u wont know it.

Its the best for both of us.

Okay.

I am very fineeeee.

So dont ask me why am i emo.

Please.

Hahaha.

Seriously, i am well.

Dont worry.

After 2 and half years later.

I will find my way back into love.

I'm sure i will.

So darlings.

Dont worry okay? haha.

I am perfectly normal.

:)))))))))))))

See i smiled!

I will miss the closeness and happen hilarious time together.

I'm sure. :)

But maybe not you.

Cos you dont feel the same way too.

Goodbye : )

2008-09-19T02:23:00.000+08:00

I smell like Soyabean+ricemilk extract shampoo now. LOL.
Nice smelling lmao.
I am tired.
I came home a 1130PM. awwww.
Spend time with zh,korkor,charis and her friends. lmao.
I had my time of my life there.

Gahhh, sorry zh, i kinda used his next week Money.
Sorry korkor for paying taxi fare.
Sorry charis for topping my bus card.
LOL.
I am a money ower.
Gahhh. i over spend. sadddd. lol.
Pay you all asap kkay, sorry darlings!

Zh paid for my dinner at BK! : )
We had a buddy meal.
Then headed to walk walk.
eat selegie tao hui. lmao.
Didnt eat, my burger cannot eat finish le.
Didnt eat dessert, drank zh coke. lmao.
i drink 2 slip and the rest goneeeee. lmao. that boy.
Korkor and charis help me pay the cab fare, cos we were cabbing home together.
then cabbed home, msged zh.
awww. i miss my Darling

Rushed to Finish RJ and the rest.
talked to zh, korkor, charis, yeobo.
haha.
i loveeeee all of them. *hugs*
:)))).
Nights

i want to spend everyday with you like this.

For charis:
What is meant for you will always be your.
Even if one day u decided you dont want it, It'll still be urs. : )
HAHAAH.
i love ya girl!

Yeobo.
I wanna gooooooo to the korean bridal thing lmao
on offer la.

2008-09-18T00:23:00.009+08:00

Firstly and fore most!

I am NOT NOT NOT NOT emo.

I am just having a bad day.

so dont ask me about the post anymore.

i'm sure you had bad days right.I

Its just another one.

i never fail to smile at baby kevin picture.

he makes most of my day.

love his pouts.

Zh nearly killed my ankle.

boyboy, we should never play stepping game anymore.

just in case i lose my dearest feet.

hahaha.

I just realised.

Its a bad month for relationships.

I think yeobo knows what i mean. : )

Aww.

: )

Smile.

did i say?

Tyron wants someone's no. hahaha.

HAHAHA.

Its damn hilarious.

tsktsk.

To J:

Dad say he aint good.

hahah.

Get what i mean?!

Okay.

Today is

Shiibjeom manjeomye Shibjeom!

Things will never revert to the past.

Even talking.

No matter how much i talk to you.

It will be just a friend.

Nothing more.

Hope you dont get the wrong idea of getting back to the past :)

It'll just be a dissappointment

I just wanted to clarify something only.

Yeobooooo.

Cheer up y'all!

lol. Seems so down today.

Hahaha. Yongie oppa makes people laugh u know.

Daesung! hahahaha. He looks wooohooo in that cat suit. -.-

love you!

Daily chantings

*no dream is too big;

no dream is too Far.

Be what you wanna be.*

2008-09-17T01:02:00.005+08:00

lyrics of the day.
Lalalalala~ pretty babe.
Lalalalala~ be my lady.
-nichkhun.

I had my daily dose of 2pm.
somehow, they made me feel.
No dream is too big
No dream is too far.
It all lies in yourself.

If i said i did.
What will u react?
Likewise to you.
What will u react too?

addicted to forget our memories.
why?
Cos, it touches my heart.
And i teared.

zzz, sorry w25f.

so far i am perfectly back to normal.
*beams*
haha.

i miss dinner with him. : (
But nevermind.
If its fated.
We could have dinners together everyday.

有时侯当朋友,比当情人更好.

Ahhh. Flu strikes.
hahaha.
Love yeobo darling, teri son and tingting daughter.
awww.

off to beddy byeeeeeeeeee

Life is cruel.

shibjeom manjeom shibjeom!.
Kevin is loved.

2008-09-16T16:14:00.005+08:00

Grabbed from xingxingdarling.

‘Which Big Bang boyfriend would you want in these situations?’

1. When I fall and hurt myself

c. Dong Young- Bae, who runs to go buys medication

2. When I say I want a name brand itema.

Choi Seung-Hyun, who buys a fake one and says later on, he’ll make it a real one

3. While watching a horror movie

b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who quietly covers my eyes

4. When my voice crack while singing

a. Choi Seung-Hyun, who pinches my cheek and says i’m cute

5. When his friend says he likes me

c. Dong Young-Bae, who talks it out with his friend

6. When I’m mad at my boyfriend

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who does cute stuff around me

7. When my boyfriend meets my friends

d. Kang Dae-Sung, who makes my friends comfortable as if they were his friends

8. On my birthday

d. Kang Dae-Sung, who sings to me on a stage at a restaurant

9. When we kiss

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who asks if I can give him a kiss on the cheek and turns his head when I’m about to kiss his cheeks

10. When it’s raining and we only have one umbrella

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who just tosses the umbrella and have both of us to walk in the rain

11. When I say I want to break up

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who clings and anxiously asks why I’m acting like this suddenly

12. When we go to the amusement park

c. Dong Young-Bae, who takes lots of pictures

13. When he is paying at a restaurant but has no money

b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs

14. When I talk to another guy

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who later asks what we talked about

15. When he can’t reach me through the phone

b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who comes to my house right away

16. When I tell him I love him

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who hugs me tightly, saying he loves me too

17. When we’re shopping

b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who picks out clothes for me

18. When I act cutely (like a kid)

e. Lee Seung-Hyun, who copies me

19. When we get held up by a gang

b. Kwon Ji-Yong, who grabs my hand and runs

TRANSLATION CREDIT: 1tymforyomind and bigbangnyuh @SOOMPI[credit if taken out]Source: ORIGINAL // IN KOREAN

1. When I buy him clothes as a present and he doesnt like it

e. SR: wears it on the spot and jumps up and down the sidewalk

2. When I am jealous due to his relationship with one of the female celebrities on TV

e. SR: Acts cute and says "Are you being jealous right now~!?' in a cute voice

3. When I'm away from my phone and another guy sends me a text hitting on me

d. DS: tells me i got a text and gives me suspicious looks

4. When he comes to my house without a word but I look like a 'pain' (no shower, havent washed hair, sweats, etc etc)

d. DS: sits down on my couch like nothings wrong and watches Dorramon

5. When I get a sickness and must die the next day

e. SR: cant stop crying and just keeps taking pictures with me

6. When he walks in on me cheating on him with someone else

b. GD: gives me his ring (couple ring), cellphone and walks out without a word

7. When meeting my parents and they dont like him

e. SR: kisses me infront of my parents and shouts "(name) IS MY LADY!"

8. When he sees that I'm in the audience while hes performing

e. SR: acts cute infront of the camera

9. When I tell him I'm going to get plastic surgery

c. YB: tells me im more beautiful now and says no.

10. When I say Im going to a resort for university

e. SR: says "Take me too"

11. When watching a movie together and its some serious 19+ sexual content...e.

SR: suddenly whips his head around and looks at me

Credits to BB's FB PG

yeahhh. i am done with both parts, this is fun. sooo very fun. hahah

Bored in class and nothing to do.

2008-09-16T01:07:00.006+08:00

My mind is troubled.
Troubles cannot seem to end.

I am confused.
Confused with relationship.
Confused over both of you.
I dont know why.

Reponse.
It for you, if you think its you.
How should i response?
All the hurt you done me.
Cannot be acted like never had happen.
I cannot feel the same way to you.
What is done has be done.
I dont know how to reponse to you.
sorry.

jealously kills.
Telling myself upteen times.
just cannot get it into my head.
That why i feel so upset.
Thats why i cried.
I feel insignifcant no matter how much i tried.
Is that all?

I am losing my ability to convey something i wanna tell.
Everytime i wanna i convey something.
I turns out wrong.
Maybe i am just losing my way of speech.

I feel damn sad.
Why?
Problems constantly find me.
i keep avoiding and avoiding.
Running and running.
When.
Will i ever stop?

Where that bubbly cordelia.
Dead?
or resting.
i want her back.
i just cannot get the grip of myself.
I am just getting weaker and tired day by day.
with all this unsolved problem.
I wanna rest. i need a rest.
Before i really explode.

This wasnt meant to be an emotic post.
But.
It turn out wrongly.
Just like my life.

I want her back.

Yeobo.
sorry ayes. really cannot make u smile,
but i hope that dedication did make u happy.
Thanks thanks!
<3

Teri
aye girl.
Sorry for the phone connection probies.
I wanted to say, i hope ya do wells for your Os and prelims!!
Thanks for being there for me.
and darn the phone : )

Dad says.
If you and your friend has never argued before.
means you have never open up to each other yet.
because.
No Friendship is ever perfect.
cos, no one is perfect.
True?

2008-09-15T18:08:00.004+08:00

The wind brushes against your face gently.

The simple and nice melody playing in your ears.

The loneliness of yourself in the bus.

The thoughts that run through your brain, your mind and your heart.

tells you.

The feeling of letting go.

The feeling of accepting.

The feeling of losing.

The feeling of gaining.

在对的时间放手.

也许,心理没那么痛.

当你紧紧握着不属于你的东西.

或许更痛苦吧.

2008-09-15T09:36:00.002+08:00

做人好难. 我不想继续.

Head pain. body ache. troubled.
What else.

2008-09-14T13:16:00.002+08:00

No more emotic post.
i dont know.
maybe something hit me right in the brain.
Although i still feel a little emo-ish now.
that i keep sighing my butt off?

2008-09-14T03:42:00.006+08:00

This will be my 4th and last post for this morning.

What is my life? i just sat and run through it.
I am nothing but a trouble maker, i seriously should be hated for this.
From young, i'm nothing but a sick child.
Bringing my parents trouble.
making them pay so much for all my hospital bills.
so much for medicine.
But yet, they got a child like me.
They derserve more.
Way more than this. they deserve a better child.
They should abandon me.
I'm nothing but a trouble.

Friends.
I have no good friends.
Serve me right too.
whenever friends turn up.
i screw it.
i havent been a good friend.
i havent been a friend either.
i have just been a pest.
an irritant.

i should vanish.
i Should have died of bleeding when i cut myself.
i should have left 3 years ago
Should have been long gone.
maybe all of this wont happen.
Maybe you all would be smiling.
I should be forgotten.

I want to go.
Far far away.
Never to return.

What is there for me to look forward.

Nothing but just a dream.

Dreams are nice.

But they never come through.

: )

2008-09-14T02:51:00.004+08:00

I need icecream.

i want to bathe in icecream.

i want to get drench in icecream.

i want to be buried in icecream.

i want to screammm my lungs out.

i want to never wake up.

i want to never see.

i want to never hear.

i want to never feel or touch.

i want to never smell.

i want to never remember.

i want to lose touch.

i want to be frozen.

i want to be gone.

The tears.

used to have feeling.

used to have memories.

used to represent something.

used to cure something.

but now.

it is nothing.

but just plain salty liquid that drops down from my eyes.

The feeling.

Used to make me smile.

Used to make me cry.

Used to make me angry.

Used to make me feel secure.

Used to make me love.

Used to make me hate.

is now nothing.

But a numb feeling

Love.

Makes people happy.

Makes people smile.

Makes people want the other party.

Makes people thinking more for each other.

Makes us bonded together.

Makes people miss each other much longer.

but now.

it makes me more troubled.

makes me hate it.

makes me want to kill it.

If one day.

i get to change it.

i dont want to cry.

i dont want to love.

i dont want to have feelings.

i want to be numb.

From everything.

2008-09-14T00:00:00.003+08:00

suddenly i felt a gush of loneliness.

that kind of unknown feeling.

no matter how many people are there with me.

there is just a spot of an emptiness in my heart, no one can ever fill. :(

When i hear bogoshipda.

i had a sudden rush of saddness overwhelm me.

tears start brimming. i just felt like crying.

Is there a word forever?

-starts thinking-

If i hadn't met you at first; i would have fallen for the another you.

Ask me my feelings.

and i'm not sure.

I can't answer a simple question.

Who you like better.

i don't know. I cannot seem to differeniate the different feelings anymore.

sorry yeobooo, sorry teri.

Sorry if i made u all feel like that.

Sorry.

hais.

I cannot seem to do anything right in my life.

Love.

Friendship.

Kinship.

normal daily basis things.

Things i plan.

Just dont seem right.

Sometimes, i feel, its not right for me to even be here.

i should i just disappear

i'm kinda feeling bad.

zzz.

Cos, plenty plenty people are not attending my brother's birthday : (

Sigh. hais. dont ask me why i sigh.

2008-09-13T23:17:00.005+08:00

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer, no matter how silly it sounds'

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
Oh my friend-Bigbang

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?.
Love should go on- Shinee

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
good by baby- Bigbang

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?.
Love action-brown eyed girls

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Crazy dog-bigbang. LMAO!!!!

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?.
Again-ss501

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Gleaming star-ss501

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Jein(sinners)-Taeyang.zzzz. They don’t really sin lor.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Endless moment- superjunior

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
Missin’u-superjunior

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Hug- DBSK

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Don’t you worry- Brown eyes

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
majimak insa(last farewell)-Bigbang, ZZZ, no relationship, say last goodbye. : (

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
이순간 이대로-Brown eyes

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
together-DBSK

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
my girl-xing

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Perfect for you- SNSD

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Hate u, love u – super junior

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
yi wan ke kuai le(one thousand happiness)- Feilunhai

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
My everything- S.j-donghae.

2008-09-13T01:26:00.004+08:00

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself,that you're not the one for me, but the more I think, the less I believe it...

-From yeobo.

ohoh, i love this qoute. so sweet. :)

Did i tell you, i super jealous. :(

Korkor loves zh more then me.

Love me moremore lah.

abandon me le. now single and no brother, hias.

why? noone wants me.

Please adopt me thanks!

My friend is weird. :( ??

why?! dont wanna disclose lehhh. :)

Yeobo and Teri

making me go mad with their wants to go korea.

aiyoooo, i wanna go too.

But i stare at the thing, will wanna go more too.

might as well dont think. :)

Love you girls.

I feel an xin now.

You let go, me too.

Memories will be kept right behind my mind. : )

the really last goodbye to you.

Wtf, is wrong with everyone? :(((

2008-09-12T19:40:00.006+08:00

Tadahhhhh, hello humans!

i'm sick, howhowhow?

hahaha.

from today onwards, i wont blog chunks of text. :D

happy right?!

school as per normal.

headed to CWP, ate mos. Faci fetched!

Slacked with korkor(s) and jiejie and aswandy after school :D

came home now? :)

waiting for people to get online :)

Noone here to chat with me.

off to do planning for Chalet and BBQ.

Oh,oh, and class blog :D

darling hyunae has decided to give up on loveeee; she want to achieve something else in life together with the rest of the family : D . YG here i come!!! <3

2008-09-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

Backbackbackback. zzzz. tedious. fun. happy. jealous. angry. sad day. : (((((((((( , you must be wondering whyyyy i can feel so many emotions in a single day. :))

headed to school. met Zhenghao at Woodlands mrt, went school together. headed class together, late also together :( , lucky is kevin class if not dieeeee. :) had team with eric, lifen, agnes and tecksin, but she didnt come, so only four of us, :), slacked all the way through meeting one, ate breakfast with daddy and his friends and korkor, Zhenghao and agnes, then they all anti me sei, make me sit with Zhenghao aloneeeee :( , i should be happy mah, but dont know why, i somehow do not feel happy now. :)

headed to class, 2nd meeting, did some work, 2nd break wanted to go cwp one, end up 1 plus then go, Had KFC, headed back to school, with a black face, lie charcoal le -.- .

Jealously kills damn badly, badly enough to leave me with and empty heart and pissed, Everything he does with another girl, be it just laughing a giggling, tickling, poking or whatever gets me jealous, even a simple wave, Wtf is wrong with me? Maybe i dont have self confidence bah. :(

Had 3rd meeting, seriously, i cannot get angry with him for long, i dont know why, by the end of 3rd meeting, we were okay already -.- , told you i cannot get angry with him for long.

After school, headed to CWP again! with clique and daddy's friends, talk talk. ate ate, :) , I think i like him that stuff, even they know le. :( , Charis went to ask him if he like me, but he said no. :((( , tell me how can i not be sad, i mean i accept the fact, maybe i shouldnt be sad. :)

He is just someone who walked in and out of my life. Just dont fall too deep into it, before i cannot pull myself up again. :) , i shouldnt fall in love as promise, maybe i should just forget him, :D. Concentrate on my studies and do my best. :DDDD

Hyunae hwaiting!

I hope yeobo had a great time! sorry didnt get to go with you all, but, but, i'll make it on the 28 darlings! :DDDD, hope to see you all then.

-byebye.

I feel hopeless today. :(
Things wont turn out as expected, I dont know if the feelings stays :)

2008-09-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

Helloooooooooooo. cordelia is super happy today, lmao! hahaha, cos she is married. NO LAH. alamak hahaha.

Headed to schooooool, darn late again, lmao by 3 mins today. omg, i go in like all gave me a weird weird look, lmao, was suppose to be with same team as zhanghao fad they all. :), But the stupid faci change me into the other team. -.-, evil right, pry me away from my so-called hubby! lmao. hahaahah, i promise i was pouting for the frigging 30 mins into lesson, then faci ask me why i like that, Then she willingly change me back into my previous team, kyaaaaaaaaaaaa~ pouting works.

headed to breakfast in the first meeting with clique, lmao, and unkwoningly got betrothed to Zhenghao, lmao, Now me and eric share one guy. Stupid korkor and his gayness, i promise you, daddy made it sound wrong. :D, hahaha, shant say what he said, it was like totally wtf?! lmao, Damn embrrassing!

headed back, did worksheet, then 2nd break went down with korkor, daddy and zhenghao to makan, korkor and zhenghao ate, me and daddy didnt, lmao, we ate in the morning! hahahah, then daddy and Korkor, went to *coughsmokecough*, Zhenghao kept me company to buy panadol, cos i'm sick, :( , he bought sweeet for himself, :), walked back, and i saw my peeps from w25F, eh, eh, caught red handed sei me, OMG. lmao, they kept going woooooo, or weeehwee. -.-, super paisei! alamak, Then all like, omg-look-face, okayokay, its not like what you all thought please! then headed with him to buy milk tea, :))))), met natt there, hahaha, reminds me of bubble tea coupons, :))))). Walking up, i couldnt open my sweet wrapper, and Zhenghao help me open, :))), Haha, thesweettastedmoresweeter! hahah, then headed to find daddy and korkor, Met them, but they ignore me and Zhenghao. :((((((((((, why, cos they kachao us, then i stepped infront of daddy, lmao, then he started laughing -.-. headed to class, did ppt, went to interview some of my friends then and presentation. :)))).

Aiyoooo, did i say jealously kills? :) hahaha, my friend thinks Zhenghao very cute, hahah, then i got jealous, then i told zhenghao about my friend, he just kept laughing, zzzz. make me sooo jealous can. >:((.

Suppose to meet the rest to go home together, end up went out with Zhenghao and daddy, Went causeway point! haha, look for my brother's cake. Then walking walking, I kept suanning Zhenghao with the cute inccident. -.-, the daddy kept saying he cute good mah, that means you got taste, lmao :(, still i'm sooo sad, i just keep pouting , cos i was angry. then Zhenghao ask me dont angry lmao! treat me icecream, lmaolmaolmao, Okay, but i didnt eat ice cream, hahahhh. thenthen headed to causeway, went to all the cake shops, and and i know what cake i wanna get already~ polar puff cake!, hahaha. em, then Zhenghao bough me a puff to eat, cos i was complaining hungry, lmaolmao, I kept nagging. So i ask him to pay first, lmao, hahaha, then want return cash, he dont wan take ._., hahaha, lmao, headed swensen look for cake again, Eheh, the puff tasted nice, u all should try, lmao. hahahahah. went home after that. :D

Messaged him on bus, Thank him for the pie and accompanying me. hahaha :DDDDDD, couldnt stop smiling can. :)))

Until now i still cannot stop smiling, lmao. hahahaa. i wanted to sleep 1hour ago, and and i msged him to wake me up :D, then he repled, today so early sleep, finished RJ all this le uh. Then dawned to me i havent lmao. hahahha. did RJ all this, haha. end already 11.15, fixed my msn. :(((

Going to sleep now.Nights, much loveeeee.

-lights out.
I like you, i know u dont think likewise, but i'll wait until you ask me not to. :)

2008-09-09T00:43:00.000+08:00

Maybe 2 years of knowing each other wasnt enough, i recently found out, we dont understand each other much.

I'll leave my byebyes here; wish you happiness. : )

I actually deleted the long message i typed to tell her. I cannot believe i did that, cos i would never do that. ahah.

And i only left 2 lines to tell her.

Aiyoooo, did i say, i am very tired today? :D haha,nothing much, reached school late by 2 mins. hah, but nothing i think minus 0.5 only lmao, hahaahahah. there goes my A! hahhah, then again, i dont think i will get one. hah. em, hahaha, i seriously sweared i was slacking my butt of during first meeting, then when i came back from break out, i cried, i even had to borrow korkor's tissues cos i used up mind, why? cos i read her blog. but okay its over, and i took like grr time to write that whole chunk so called message to her, but decided to delete it, why simple reason, i talked it out with my yeobo, i talked it out with jolene, i talked it out with eric, and i decided that, i cannot carry on this war, simply because we dont understand each other, not that i give in to all the things she say about me, in fact, if i would to say i wasnt angry, this few people stated above, who never believe me :), but its because of this few people, it made me smile. :))))), thank you. Oh then, then, we did our ppt slides, headed down to makan, i ate xiao long bao, but it tasted like, Stone hard and omgomgiish weird taste. haha, headed back up, had presentation, i screwed it as expected. :), then ended class, em, haha, slacked with korkor they all. haha, called Zhenghao, but he didnt pick up. At the end he called me back, :)))))), hahahaha. thenthen, pass the phone to korkor, and he passed the phone to daddy, then pass the phone to me, lmao, talktalk abit only, then hand to korkor, lmao. hahahaha. omgomg. then came home, had dinner, chat, embarrassed my stupid self on radio, lmao, hahaha, check out the chalet stuff, and i seriously think that i feel weird and sickly now, cos i keep on feel like puking and my stomach like a washing machine(seriously i aint no pregnant okay!) and and, hahaha, eric is making laugh with all his highing lmao.Okay brief blog, know why, someone is chasing me to bed! i left 2 mins.

Eh, zhenghao is not well, i hope he gets well soon okay? :))))))))

From yeobo:

Now you have to smile for me.

Because you are my seobang :P

To yeobo:

I am smiling now

because you are my yeobo!

i love you.

Hope ur neck is fine, if not ask appa to cure it. :D

lmao.

-lights out. :)))))

unhappy indirectly, but happy directly. i love you guys! Especially you, for making my day, although u aint here. :))))) imy.

2008-09-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

Helloooooooo. I'm a naughty girl today, tell you later on why. -.-

Mr.liew zhenghao was suppose to wake me up at 7-7.15am, butbut, he 7.35 then msg me wake up. lmao, i didnt bother to reply him and went back to sleep, then he 7.42 msg me to wake up again! lmao. hahahah. okay okay, by then i pulled myself up, lmao. Reach school at 8.50am, wah lao, i still can msg zhenghao say i blowing hair lmao. hahahhah. reach class, wah lao, not even half filled! omgomg, then Zhenghao came in, the first question he ask me was, how come u reach faster then me. lmao, cos i cabbed there! hahaha. super adorkable his face in the morning. 1st break when out, to opposite, korkor and daddy when to drink. -.- headed back, emo the whole 2nd meeting, cos zhenghao and korkor keep kachao me along with daddy, make me so embarrassed can.omgomg, so pissed lmao, but okay lah cos korkor apologies keep making me am chio, second breakout went causeway, lmao, went to makan then they went drinking again, while walking back, lmao, jiejie damn sei one, i didnt drink, because previous night already sei, dont want le. lmao, the rest drank, i guai kia, then all so high, cannot present so we pontank(seeeee, i naughty right) lmao. hahaha.

went orchard, long bus ride, but i loved it, why? cos i sat next to someone lmao, hahahahaha, butbut, still till butt pain, cos the journey got 1 hr plus. lmao, hahaha, then reached there help daddy buy shoe, then walked walked, then slacked at mac, and then me and krokor suddenly emo. -.- , problems. hahah, then headed to cine, cos jiejie meeting her friend, so i walked with korkor and zhenghao, then then, zhenghao has to leave :( haha, nvm lor. slacked at cine, lmao, felt like lightbulb lahhhhhhh.after that met jiejie friend, they went paragon, me and korkor left together to mrt, he alighted first then me.

haha, i ask him a stupid question, i said, i go die okay, then he said, go la go. I was hurt lah, i meant how would u feel if the person u like said that. -.-, okay lor, so i said, okay, if you dont see me tomorrow then means i die le, he still can say okay, laughing -.-, grr. lmaao. then then i msged him after that, if he really wouldnt bother abit. but he said he would a little, and ask me if i was happy with that response, -.- , dont know what to say. abit feels like it was force, but happy cos he said he would. -.-, confused. :D, dont know whether to carry on liking him anot, cos i have a feeling he likes someone esle. :( , butbut, i'm fine, i wasnt suppose to like someone in the first place, its a promise to myself, liking him, is a sin to myself.

Came home, dead tired, lmao, i said i want to sleep till now havent sleep. haha, but i really going to sleep.

JieJie

dont get so emo over everything.

Liking is a partial of life.

Rejecting and accepting too. :D

so not matter what.

we cannot let boys get our way,

Cos we love each other toooo much already.

okay?

I miss you.

Yeobo.

eheh, finally got to catch up with you.

Haha, take care of your hand,

Or ask appa cure it.

i missed you. hahah.

Sorry if i was in bad mood this few days.

Teri!

Ehhhh.

see got paragraph le lah.

Dont get upset over teddy haha.

Good luck for prelims.

Tingting.

Muahahhaa.

u know what i know about him.

And i love you.

Cos u also read my fics.

*hug*

Jolene.

HAHAHHA.

okay.

i miss you load.

thanks for accepting the invitation! haha.

See you on sun!

: )

-lights out

2008-09-07T23:34:00.003+08:00

i feel fucked up. why? now i'm gonna reply to the shitty post u left me, i cannot stand it anymore.

u call me selfish. then you? If i was selfish, i would have left you long ago. You treat me like air, i'm still here, now u call me selfish, dont you think is pot calling the kettle black? Who treats a friend, telling her i'm busy, i got no time, i have not enough sleep, but goes out with her friend, and now even has a boyfriend. You call this busy? Serious, i dont give a damn about u going with your friends, because i'm already like use to this leaving me out thing. But u told me u got a boyfriend, i already get left out, now u got a boyfriend, even worse. You want me to be happy for you? dream also dont need. i sound harsh, because u made me too. This kind of friendship, you treat someone else, you would have long time lost this friendship, i can hold on till this day, i think is only one thing, i'm stupid. NOONE WILL LIKE TO HANDLE A FRIENDSHIP LIKE THIS, NO ONE WOULD WANT TO ALSO.

You hate the me now, not surprising, i changed for a reason, i dont like being pushed around, whether u dislike the me now. i wont bother, i like the me now.

You say my personality sucked, shouldnt you say yours too. You are the only said i sucked, why, cos u dont bother to mix around with me, when u wrote that post, i went around asking my friends, but no one said i did. why, cos they know me me. And you dont. You dont bother. Who is being the selfish one. Why dont u think for yourself. i gave in alot, If i was selfish, Our friendship wont even last til this day, it would be long gone,like now.

you wanna hold on, I dont wanna hold on. i want to let go. And i'm doing it now. Because, to me, its not worth.

And i dont like being blame for something i am not wrong.

Time to reflect.

Back from bbq, lmao. had fun time there, although someone decided to spoil my mood by reading her blog, that churned my anger on the above post. But i am fine, i decided not to bother after talking to korkor and jolene. Helped BBQ, ate quite alot, but then stopped for a long time too, until late late i went to cook 7 prawns to eat, lmao! haha, then sat with my friend who were playing cards and drinking. I dont play caards, so i didnt play. But but, i drank. -.- , only 2 cups of vodka, one mix and one not, And i got drunk, not as bad as my friend, who was really drunk. lmao. But i walked sei sei one. climb one stair i occupied the whole thing, cos i left walking left and right lmao. hahah, and i had a priceless face, omgomgomg, then i started laughing, omgomgomg, i was like a retard, omgomgomg, then i called korkor, called zhenghao, only korkor picked up. :( Haha, at least korkor picked up, but i was super sei, so i dont know what i talked. omgomgomg, so paisei, lmao, tomorrow have to face them. omgomgomg, lmao. okay, bused home, and i nearly fell in the bus, and off too. -.- ,haha, the people were like look at me weird weird one. okay i know, but i cannot stand properly mah, i was giddy. omgomgomg. lmao. hahahahha. then my 812 so long. wah lao. i felt like puking lah. :O ,headed home. when my dad open the door oly, look at me one kind, cos i smelt like alcohol, then i smiled innocently and walked away.lmao lmao, talked to kor and msged zhenghao. hhahaha. bathed. continues msging and chatting. KORKOR, u better come school, or i'll kick ur ass. lmao. hahahah. Asked Zhenghao to wake me up, lmao. incase i cannot, hahaha. And he said okay,lmao. Didnt know he wakes up the same time as me. lmao. hahaha. okay, my stomach is churning now still. omgomgomg. but then. ok, hahaha. i wanna sleep, haha, planning my brother's birthday cake! hahahaha.

2008-09-07T13:17:00.002+08:00

Hahaha, i wake up super late. 12.30pm. hahahaha,talked to korkor, then went to bathe, come out still talking to korkor. lmao ahhahaha, i miss e36j, i miss you all, hurhur, lucky school starting tomorrow. hahaha. heading out later for BBQ! but i'm lazy and i keep complaining to korkor, i think he become more sickly lmao. hahahaha. i want to goooooo shopping with them one, hah, i think if i go with them, their legs will break, cos girl shop super long. lmao. but guys alsooooo. then all will start nagging me. -.-, and and, when did i become class 'monitress'? hahhaha, rubbish lah that korkor, ask me organize outing. :D hahaha. can can, where u all want gooooo?

2008-09-07T01:50:00.000+08:00

YOU ALL MUST HEAR MY BLOG SONG.
OR I WILL CRY. -.-
Really nice songgg mah, so must hear.
lights really out at -2 AM

- :D

不要叫我哪个称呼,对我很陌生.
Dont call me by that title[bestf], sounds foreign to meeeeeee. and hard to digest.

i woke up super late today, cos i slept super late the day before. -.-, happy moooood, hahaha. but got screamed by my mother once i woke upp. haha, hmms, then afternoon, headed out, hahaha, msged korkor, he soooo funny, he say me and jiejie like funny bunny, cos we thoguht he emo, so we both spammed him with msges. hahahaha. who ask him emo de. hahahaha.

Then headed out, talking to korkor online in the car. ahah, msged Zhenghao, but he super late then reply me, but at least he reply me.Haha, met my relative ate dinner, then msging at the same time, lmao. hahahaa, i ate super little only. -.-, but felt so bloated! hahah. headed to my aunts house.

Stayed there needa help do something, then i suddenly remember Zhenghao stayed in queensway toooo. lmao, then rained heavily. hahaha, left around 9, like that, hahaha. msged zhenghao and korkor. reached home. that korkor left me a offline msg. -.-, ahhahaha, he lah, busy guessing who i like. -.-, he guess until pek chek. lmao. haha, but so obvious right? sotong kia!

I'm being mean for this few days to my korkor and zhenghao, hahaha. i said i wanna snip zhenghao's hair. and i wanna make korkor into stuff sambal sotong. ^^ hahahaha. then Fad said me like this."scary sia. like one moment you doing ppt, the next moment when touching your head, you lost a bit of your hair", lmao, i cannot stop laughing. hahahahah.

Headed home,mass convo and daddy and korkor, like busy bullying meeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. evil people, cos they older then me, so can bully. -.- . Then i got xiang si bing today, lmao, So they bully me. -.- . That korkor till ask me miss him -.-. hahaha, Got got, i miss all of you, especially him, lmao, hahahahahahah. okies.

invited jolene to my Brother(Crispin, see the diff, i call my real brother brother, and not my blood related one korkor.) birthday since they know each other, hahaha, so she coming to help prepare too, miss her loads! haha. He ask me invite someone else too and jolene ask me the same question. the problem is, i cannot bring myself to forgive her, not that i dont want, and not that i dont have courage and i have no intention too yet. -.- . can you imagine the blow she done, not everyone will understand okay. =.=, then jolene was like relax relax. lmao, i'm okay lah! hahahah. i wont go emo state deee. ahahahah, Then again, bestfriends are just a title! ahaha, which has no deep meaning to it, just sound nice only.

At this time, The only thing keeping me awake and making smile is zhenghao's msges. hahahah. *keeps grinning to myself* hahahha, want his jacket!!! gonna steal on monday! pwhahaahhha. haha. okay okay, i wan sleep le. hahaha.

i wanna get a cake for my brother, and i wanna make it a surprise. i wanna make him cry, i'm a meannie! hhahaha. but i like it! hahahhaha.

i miss my yeobo alot, cos she was not onlineeeeeeee. faster online. T.T.
i miss my tingting too and my teriteri, lmao. hahah, one is my advicer plus spazz buddy and one is my smile maker! hahaha. Love you all~ haha.

hmms, Haha, i suddenly thought, that, the reason my post is long, is because, one day if i got into and accident or anything, that involves losing my memory i can regain my memory by reading my daily life, sooo sorry if its very wordy, cos u never know when u gonna lose your memory, and i wanna remember the main points in my life, thats why. sorry!
Haha, and i looked through the Yadao.com, my class individual photos, we all look diff! hahah, i was msging zhenghao telling him, how funny we looked! and his face. hahaha, he was like ya lor! hahahahah. okay okay, i really wanna sleep.

Nights everyone. imy! and and, starting to falling into loveeeeeeeee(cannot cannot! hahah, cos i wanna go uni! :D, trying to fall out!)

-lights out *Blows the candle*

2008-09-06T02:11:00.002+08:00

BOO!
lmao. Happy happy mood today, besides the fact over that thing, because many talked me out. Asking me to dont bother about it. So yepps, i'm not bothering. i got others, according to many of my friends. lmao. There are many of other i should show concern too. :D
Headed to school as usual, lmao, i thought i was gonna be lateeeeee, but i turn out to be one of the earliest at 8.45, the class had 5 people only! when class was gonna start at 9. lmao, theeeeeen, class start le, the faci uh, at first dislike him one, cos he scold me for sleeping in class. lmao. hahaha, then went to eat first break. headed to class, listen to class, Faci was giving out coupons for bubble tea if we did well. lmao, haha.
second break, i felt all so emoish, so i didnt talked and blasted music, but i manage to help the group out with the ppt, i havent been helping for 2 days, i dont wanna be a slacker during second semster. then done ppt, everything, wooot.Presentation, faci skip my member slide, then he say i talk alot for the presentation, give other chance. -.- , Eh, u think i want de uh, u skip my memeber slide, kookoohead. Pfft, lmao, but i was quiet surprise i actually felt i did a good job with it. *Job statisfactory* lmao. *Beams*
class ended, and i manage to recieve a Buttle tea coupon! lmao, so stylo one the coupon, hahha. i got offer my team mate whether they want, but all dont wan to take. -.- so i keep. then did quiz, crap 3/7 only!. boohoo.
When to find Zhenghao, go talk talk. *beams with joy*, haha, i swear his jacket is the world's nice smelling jacket. just when i thought my brother has the nicest smelling jacket, Zhenghao appeared infront of me with it. Hahah, He ranks first now! :D *BEAMS*, i feel like stealing his jacket. lmao. i hugged his jacket while talking to him, cos super comfy, then do quiz with him, lmao. he scored 4/7, ppft! cannoooooot, he bully meeeeee. hahaha, then went out of class with him, everytime i stand beside him, i feel pressured. know why, he is like 1 head taller 180++ -.-, Stress leh, talk to him i must tilt my head. hahaha, then he said he was going to find friend, then i nodded, he walk 2 step turn around, and said, u want go with me find my friend can know him, LMAO, ehhh, i stunned de lor. -.-, i say nevermind lah, your friend lai de. he laughed and left. He smile is woah, so cute! -.- .lmao, haha.
When back, the end up leaving with jiejie they all, hahaha. then Eric and me walked to bus stop, cos he waiting for daddy, i waiting for bus, -.- , so he walked with me to the bus stop, sit with me and talk talk, then he suddenly talk about zhenghao to me. -.-. Scandalous class.
then he left, my bus also come le, then Zhenghao and jiejie's smses kept my awake in the bus, cos if i sleep confirm cannot wake up. hahaha. then reached home, suddenly walk into house felt so emoish,lmao, go dinner, also emoish, lmao. okay, come back awhile awhile okay le. online chatting. haha, then did work, omg, i was waiting for jiejie to finish her cup doodles. and talking to edmund, then when i open RJ 2 mins later i fell asleep! omg, then i wake up, it was 10pm le. lmao. Then i was like what happen. hahhaha. then check phone, i didnt reply zhenghao for 1 hour, he really suan people oneeeeeeeeee. toopid boy. haha.
Then who night talking to My class peep. hahaha, so funny. Zheghao and me were like, irritating each other. lmao. hahaha.
Me and Zhenghao's hair issues, Wth, lmao. i say want pluck his hair, he ask me what, armpit hair, wah lao, i thought he so decent one! turn out. -.-, ren bu ke mao xiang. hahahaha. i wanted to pluck his tou fa, not other hairs can. but super funny. hahahahaha. and i thought he younger then me, so i called him, didi!, then when i know he older i went, ohhh~, his reaction was like, u still wan call me xiaodidi anot? huh, xiaomeimei. When he said that, i suddely felt like kindergarten kid. -.- , lmao, the whole mass convo, i'm like youngest there, then they talking about clubbing, i know nothing. -.-. Gahh, hahahaha. He became my zhuzhu, lmao, i call him that. Cos he zhuzhu mah, hahahaha. okay lah, nothing le. He insenstive one.
Then talked to ting the whole night, lmao, she soooo hyper can! then told her about him, she went give him a chance lah. -.-, i went if got chance i will give, problem is there isnt, lmao, then she said, dont say yrself like that lah, -.-. hahaha. okay okay, for once, i listening to me daughter. hahahaha.
Then also yeobooo. lmao hahahaha, she uh, confused about me, hahahahahaha. i miss out alot with her, then at the end we both said 2am and 2pm. lmao, haha, but she not going to be online for a weekend, cos she will be busy, booooohoooo. i will miss herrrrrrr!
Then chatting with jiejie now, cos she and korkor facing problem, She killed it, but i'm sure nothing will happen lahhh. hahha. dont worry.
I just smsed him. -.- , tomorrow he sure kill me. Then monday i will take sisscors cut his spiky hair. lmao hahahhaha.

-lights out.

you no need to be a special someone, to be placed in someone heart, you just need to be you. Because everyone is special to each his/her own.
Thanks jolene!

You killed me, just like u killed my heart.

2008-09-05T00:56:00.002+08:00

MAIN TITLE OF TODAY:

BEST FRIENDS ARE TITLE I WONT TRUST FROM TODAY ONWARDS.

Thanks for letting me know the meaning of absence, and living in the dark. :D

much appreciated.

but not forgiven. Cos i dont know how to do that, since i dont know when. So dont bother asking.

Back to normal. lovely school day today, lmao. i was suppose to sleep at 12.20 yesterday. Ended up. 1am. tell me whyyy?Cos, Junhong(daddy), Eric(Dajie),huishan(Er jie), me mass convo!, thanks to that eric, i told him i wanna sleep at 12.20, then he went, added u in convo first.End up he sleep earlier then me. -.- .

Then today go school.normal, problem statement is totally, gahhh, pulls my hair out. lmao. suppose to be happy mood become stressed out, then pms. Whyyy? cos stupid problem statement. then went lunch with w25f, then i hopped table go sit with e36j people. lmao. hahaha. then chatting with jie. lmao. she so cute lah. slackeddddddddddd. until 4.40 plus, left class with jie. then leave dajie with his friends lmao. then met dominic, haha, he ask me go movie. then at first wan go one, end up, didnt, cos, i didnt wanna go then it was raining heavily. -.- , so we slacked, then went canteen, then we both dont know what to do lmao. 5.29pm only. rain like mad, so we both sat down, and shared a plate of chicken cutlet. -.- hahahaha. then he walked me to the pick up point cos my mummy fetching me, waiting with me till my mummy come then he went. haha.

reached home, that plate of chicken, caused me not to eat any dinner till now?! lmao. ahahaha. then used comp, talked to jie and dajie, and daddy, and some other, mass convo, and some single ones. lmao i had 7 window blinking -.-, hahah.

Talked to my seoobang, and kids. lmao. they brighten my life.

Then talking halfway, i read something, that made me sooooo emo. so i feel like going emoish. lmao. Purely one reason, it feels like betryal, dechipher yourself, but they manage to talk me out although i cried. -.- , thanks.

i have 2 lovely families. friends, and someone.

e36j sotsot kia.

junhong- daddy, known as sky.

Eric- Dajie, know as cloud.

huishan- erjie, known as potato

edmund- erge, no known things.

me- meimei, known as corn(Idk why)

tecksin- buddy.

Ast Family.

xing- yeobo

me- Seobang

huiting- ddal

teri- adeul.

Friend

Dominic- confidant.

some w25f

and, some nbss peeps.

Someone-tsktsk. ^^

idk if its him.

Its not that i dont want to list u down, cos i'll cheat myself if i do so, its better to hurt now then later right.

Just like it always happen to me.

Messages that made me smile after knowing it, if not i'll still be crying if its the old me.

me: i dont treat you all as a friend.

Xing: of cos not, u my seobang leh.

(it touched me ._.)

Me: Grr.

Jie: Dont worry lah, u have us.

(Touched me again ._.)

-lights out*Blows candles*

i feel angrier then happier for you. Sorry to say that.

2008-09-04T00:14:00.004+08:00

Hello everyone, yoreobun annyeong.

Today was first day of class e36J, and i loveeeeeeed it, i dont wanna lie, cos i really did love it. i made loads of new friends there. LMAO, and my group, damn shoik. got zhenghao, fad and shar. i just love this group, we were freaking noisy, lmao.

Okay, then i was like busy Msn-ing yeobo, how can i miss her out. lmao, SHES MY YEOBO. lmao. If i really want, i still will thank my ast1 family no matter what. When i am down, they are the only ones who has really been there for me.As for the rest, other then jolene, jolin some w25f people for some reasons, to me are dead. -.- . they dont exsist in my dictionary.

Met Tingting at CCK, hahaha, she so pretty, haha, differents from the pics, passed her chocopie. haha then we separated. Chat online, haha, she sooo cte, keep pushing me for FIC lmao. hahaha, i love her alot.

And teri, i asked the weird question, did u cry listening to the dedication, then she was like errr,no? lmao, did xing cry. hahahaha. Hahaha. Mrs park, is my adorable son!

I dedicated a song to Yeobo they all. haha, and they all heard it, DJ lisa was busy chit chatting with me on the phone. hahaha. She is super sweet. i was almost gonna cry, until she told me 15 more then go on air, Haha, so like nothing le lor. hahaha.

Looks forward for school tomorrow. Hwaiting!

2008-09-03T00:51:00.002+08:00

Before i sleeeeep. short post.
lmao. me and Tingting, were like higih cos of personal things. lmao. if i blog about it here, she will kill meeeee. i will probably not live till tomorrow. hahaha.

School starts tomorrow E36J, i will try and make more friends there,hahaha. i will be doing my own things the whole day though. i'm anti social if u dont know.

Headed out with jolin in the afternoon, haha, shopping the whole day, bought tongs of things, now i feel broke. lmao. hahahaha.

i forget tingting's choco pie lmao three time in a row, and i blamed it on tomo forgetting to bring for me, pwhahahah. omg, hilarious. Heading to CCK tomorrow again, so i will bring it to her, if i remember.

Chatted with my family on msn, haha. i loveeeeeee them, cos they make me happy.started a new fic. hahaha. with the girls inside. haha. i hope they love it.

and thanks to DJ lisa for my request. i know its loooong, but she read it.

-lights out.

2008-09-02T00:36:00.003+08:00

"Promise made, weren't something made to be broken."

Recently, i feel down, some of you may know why. and i just cant help but to feel that way, sorry girls.
Talked with louis, seems like, he is feeling damn shitty about his sister too, we both are finding hard to accept the fact about the conditioning worsening,And we can do anything, well, at least louis is doing something, but i'm just friggin helpless and hopeless. Mail him just now. Sigh.

Seriously one day, if i do not have yeobo,son and daughter, i dont know what will happen to me, i'll go into depression, cuss myself for making them listen to my saddness. Dont know what has gotten over me. Also recently jolene, as been there for me, as for the rest, they kinda disappeared,or should i say couldnt be Friggin bothered, put it nicer way, they kida got stuck in their own damn bloody world.

Not much of a entertainment week. my head is throbing, my heart is stopping, it feels like dying.

lights off-

2008-08-30T23:36:00.003+08:00

"It hurts to love someone when you can't tell what you really feel….get hurt without them knowing, get jealous when you don't have the right to."

Quoted-from some Fanfic. lmao.

nothing much today, hahah, woke up early, headed for lunch, then, my mum wanted to cut hair, so i went to block 418 there, nothing much, when to see guiene Pig, so adorable, aww, they stone

for defence, haha, so dorky, lmao.

Came home, did nothing but recordings, then went out for dinner again, i got sooo bored i msg yeobo and son, hahahaa.

Off out tomorrow for Smrt challenge. also, jolene, good luck fer ya competition!

-Lights out.

2008-08-30T00:54:00.005+08:00

hellooooooooo. i smiled the whole day. i laughed the whole day. because i promise my families that wont dwell over her sickness, cos she wont want me to be sad like this. Soooo i smiled, Actually i didnt smile the moment i got off the bed, i laughed a little in school, and i laughed alot during the outing.

When out the house at 7.25 when i suppose to meet mayguss at 7.30. anyways, headed to school, and they made me sit my butt there for 1 hrs doing nothing, Cos the new VP says cannot let ex student come in. Whatever~, well, a bunch of us manage to pester the principal to let us up, maybe he aint bad at all, watched a concert that i would say, totally wasted my friggin sleep tikme when i could, seriously, i didnt waste my time, to come back and watch a boring performance like this, previous years were much better, and i wont mind coming back for them, but this totaly wasted my time, aint going for concert next year, soooo dont bother asking me. Chatted around, met up with almost the whole class, aww, i thought i could catcha glimpse of jolene, but she didnt comeee.lol. left at 12, when to eat teppanyaki, then shopped around, i bought a pants and tank top at hangten, cos of something, but i really like that pants, lol, actually i wont mind buying another one, is damn nice and comfy. So headed off to city hall, to meet my 'family', hahah.

Reached super late, i was suppose to meet 2.30 at raffles place, but i left my place at 2.25 cos something cropped up, anywyas, been messaging teri and xing, lmao, when i was on my way, they reached, super paisei, but they waited, thanks and paisei, hahah, when i reached there, Teri and xing bought me a cake, cos she said, eating something sweet, makes a person happier. Aww, they are super sweet lah, and it caught me by surprise, Now u know why i lovee them, cos they never fail to make me smile. hahaha, then we went off to find the korea plaza, lmao, we walked like one big round, lmao. hahahahah, then for no reason, i talked in chinese, suddenly got malaysian accent one. lmao. imfluence by idk. then we went to have a drink,c os teri havent eaaat, hahahaha, then we headed to chinatown, lmao, we find the place to damn shitty u know, and we walked like soooooo long, then reached s-mart, haha, bought quiet a number of things, cos i decided to share $50 with them, hahahaha, so whatever we want we just pick, hahah, then we bought like, 54.80 worth of food, Hahah, imagine that, hahhaha, i bought the most, lmao, i'mma greedy pig, hahahah, but i wanted to share, cos, they encorage me to join the competition one, hahah, also they are always there for me, so i really wanted to thank them, but i dont know how. but they bought so little things only. -.- then heading back that time, we realize how near the mart was from the stupid MRT station u know. grr, second time today we walk rounds, hahaha, then when tiong bahru plaza, when mos for dinner, hahha. then slacked, and xing and teri s cute, haha, they were amused by ss501 morning call, hahaha, Pali pali, hahaha then after that, accompained teri to buy donuts, haha, then headed off first, cos my bus came first, slept throughout the tri, got one lady keep hitting me, tsk, irritating. hahaha, then reached home, slacked, Xing told me, she got pulled by a friend watch midnight horror movie, then we were messaging, suddenly stop msging, so teri and me said maybe she fainted in the cinema, hahahaha.

Oh, i manage to watch my performance with HJ split, i'm like super happy lahh, haha Taeyang's performances are two words, HOT and SEXY. hahaha

See the cake they bought, haha, buy the time i reach home, the cake got bent here and abit there, but it still kept my heart warmth, because its from them. And although they didnt know, but this is my favourite cake from polar puff, Cos it was the first cake i eat from there, and i loved it. But this time, it was extra swweet, cos the sweet people gave it to me.

Some items i redeem from s-mart, hahah, nice yummy food to eat, hahaha.

Off to sleep, i wanna sleep more yesterday today, sooooooo bye people!
hyunae, is definately happier then yesterday.
Thank you for caring about me. And continue help me pray for my friend, please...

2008-08-29T01:00:00.004+08:00

Crap, i took quiet a long time to figure how to move this blogskin into the center but i cant, =.= , bad day, i hate today i will hate today forever.

Any way to wake a patient in coma? teach me, i'm desperate i could breakdown anytime, please, tell me. tell me, mail me also can, i just need ways. i miss her alot. i've been crying for half of the whole day today already.i hope she hear this.

dongseang uh.

Dont sleep already. I'm being a pig already and i dont sleep for a week.

so you must wake up.

you have no idea how much i missed you.

you have no idea how long i stay up all night just to wait for you.

you have no idea how much things i have to tell you.

its time for you to wake up already.

if not unnie is not going to forgive you this time, and i'm serious.

wake up, please. dont sleep.

i'm bored.

you said you will always be there for me when i need you.

i need you now, but u are not here.

we promise to make it into the entertainment industry uh.

dont tell me you have forgotten already.

you cannot sleep.

we have many things we want to complete.

dont you miss me.

i miss your voice.

i miss you laughter.

i miss you craziness.

i miss your saddness.

i miss your comfort.

i miss you cute little sorries.

you asked me to be strong.

how about you?

you should too.

Dont be lazy already.

we want to go korea right.

next year.

i will.

if you wake up.

i miss you alot.

i do.

see the time.

i'm still waiting for you.

i owe u a song.when u wake up.i sing to you.

i'll do the things u want.

Just wake up for now.

We understood each other, we were always sticking to each other everytime we had the time, We promised each other many things, when i was said and crying, she would be comforting me, but now, when she is in hospital, i cannot do anything, all i can do is pray. i feel helpless, i hate myself for that. i miss her. i miss her alot. She stands a big part in my life, i feel terrible. god, help me wake her up. Please, i beg you.

when i sigh, it always replay in my mind. her voice, her cuteness.

me:-sigh-

Her: unnie! dont sigh.

me: Why.

Her: because it leads to depression.

me: haha. okay okay.

Her: its a promise okay, you cannot sigh anymore. or i wont want you.

me: okay okay.

dongseang, wake up, and i promise you i wont sigh anymore.I promise.

Teri and xing, thank you alot, there is so much thank yous i wanna tell you both, thank you for being there for me, thank you for cheering me up, thank you for making me laugh, thank you for hearing my irritating problems, there for the many many silent things you have done.

ting, thank you, also, although i havent tell u about what is going on, you totally made me smile.

i want to secretly thank DJ lisa, for reading my messsage and wishing my dongseang

heading back to school tomorrow. after that, we have a ast family outing, i wanna treat my family to korean goodies, becauseeeeeee, i'm the appa. ^^

Little chats that made my day happy:

xing: maybe you wanna ask the children wanna go walk walk for a couple of hours or what.

me: Our youngest child is doing her work. Our son, dont mind.

Me: i hope the DJ is lisa, cos i said, dear DJ lisa

Xing: If its DJ jay, he will say too, unless he bu yao lian, say dear DJ jay

Me:i cannot smile like daesung
teri:if u can't smile like daesung,than smile like seungri

teri: A smile is a curve, that can straighten out a lot of things.

Me:That byul look alike is malaysian.

Ting: eee, no way, byul is way hotter than anyone else.

2008-08-27T19:50:00.004+08:00

Haha. I'm trying to figure out, how to connect Mrs Park and My Son. LOL. hahahahahaha. Son uh Son. You are Freakin hilarious! She suddenly talk about 4D with me. LOL 0034. And she lost money. lol. hahahahaha.
Everyone should try and smile like daesung. haha. Cos i'm hearing Daesung's trying to smile. hahaha.
I cannot help but smiling, i've been smiling for the whole day liao! hahaha.
I have panda eyes like seungri. lmao!

2008-08-27T02:23:00.003+08:00

She can't get enough; she's addicted to my love.

lmao! i like that song, omg~ addictive. Haha, the video is even more addictive. lmao! hahaha. hmms, i'm in one of my bestest moods today.

Firstly first, Cos, i Put down alot of my past and start a new, with one of my long lost friend. I felt that tinge of warmth in my heart.

Tsk, hahah. I dont know, Maybe i'm starting to have a better life.
Sorry isnt always the hardest word i guess.

Really i used to think that, I dont wanna the world to know alot of truth about me. Cos, they would always laugh at me. So its like hiding myself away from the world or even my friends, that why it so difficult to have friends. haha, but i guess not now.

When a friend goes away from you, its not your lost, it is he/hers. You won a battle, She/he lost it. I admit, there are some battle i have lost, But for now, i have no time to regret, life continue, it doesnt stop, It wont stop for ur regret, so why dwell.

My son told me, you dont need to find good friend, they come to you eventually.

I believe its true, meeting yeobo, meeting my son, and my daughter, was unintentionally, yet, they become one of my precious friends in my life i would never want to put aside. Having them by my side, i can never get bored, we celebrates things together, think of what to do together, plan things together. we dont meet often, but their presence always stay near me, because i know when i'm in need or not feeling good, i can always look for them. A simple month, feels like many years.

One whole year , this what i have learnt about friends for one whole year, lesson well taught, haha. Ends my long chapter about friends.

-ends,Saranghae, chingu yah.-

Second was, I got second place Coolktime singing competition. ahah, seriously speaking, i never really thought i would win, i messed up my last line. i sounded like a kiddo. Haha, and i wanted to join cos i love singing. Haha, i sounded super nervous, lol. Haha, lmao. I love lisa voice. Then at the end, DJ Jay called me, lmao! haha, the person who i didnt want to hear the voice. omg~ haha. But whatver, he sounded emo.Haha.

Third, was, i dont know i should be happy or sad, when i got Posted to E36J. He got posted to w26J, when i told him, isnt it good not to be in the same class, he said, why is it good, I said, Its difficult for me to face you, we had awkward moments, He said, its okay. I'm fine with it.Its normal, i said, it wasnt. lol. i told him to drive me to larkin market. he told me, wait til he has bought a car, which is 90 years later, i told him i'll slap him. he told me, slap me, you dare? i said, what makes u think i do not dare slap my bestfriend? lol! And i'm gonna slap him. a week before. He told me he misses me. Eh, i had no reaction. lol! He uh He. Stupid guy, who i nearly kissed on my first day of my sch, who ended up being my best friend, who i was not suppose to love, cos he was my bestfriend, who hurt me till the end, He was once my dear, i was once his darling[thats what we called each other, haha], but it was end, it never was to be in the start, Now he tells me he misses me? lmao. Hard to believe. i dont have any feelings for him anymore.

hahaha. Em, it really sums up my day. Hows my fun day, not as fun as yours?

2008-08-26T21:45:00.003+08:00

Waking up scene: Tic! Toc!- Super junior
Average-day scene: Xin yuan bian li tie(Sticky Note girl)- Yuan ruo lan
Best-friend(s) scene: Chut cha- Super junior T [my best friend is not trot!]
First-date scene: Victory-Bigbang [tahhh! i love this one]
Falling-in-love scene: Xin li you shu- Fei lun hai
Fight scene: In your smile- SS501 [ i dont smile when people are fighting]
Love scene: Yu hak- xing
Heartbreak scene: purple rain- Shin hye sung
Mental-breakdown scene: Ride on- TVXQ [ i'll go mental hearing this song]
Driving scene: Pabo- TVXQ
Deep-thought scene: So in love- Shinhwa
Flashback scene: Only Love- Sm town
Party scene: Timeless- Junsu and Zhang Ri yin [who parties in timeless that song?]
Happy dance scene: She drives me crazy- MC mong
Regret scene: Baby I’m sorry- Bigbang Taeyang [hahah, fits this perfectly.]
Long-night-alone scene: Rock u-Kara
Death scene: Just once more- Shinhwa [die once more]
Closing credits: Sad Promise remix- davichi

LMAO!. Some so weird.
hms, haha. i'm happy today, cos i finally had the courage to put things aside, and start out new. haha.
Quiz From my darling yeobo! haha.
Everyone try out. hahaha.

2008-08-26T01:11:00.000+08:00

yeobo post made me tear up, together with kajimah kajimah. aww, yeobo, i love you.

2008-08-26T00:17:00.004+08:00

Did i really meant to walk out of her life.i dont think so. even if all the things she did and done to me, vice versa. i cannot forget the more good times we had together. i'm sorry. losing someone is the only time of know the importance, she didnt snatch me away, i choose to walk out. Was it the wrong route?

memories are so hard to forget at times. Have i really choosen the wrong road? i dont know myself.

Just finish watching animal farm, its a damn hilarious show. LOL. Those who promise to watch should watch it. okay, i'm damn high now, yeobo too, cos we just finished animal home. haha. okay damn funny damn funny, lol. Nothing much today. hahaha. just high, and i wanna eat applemint. hahah. helphelp.

em. i cannot for baskin robbin and byul lookalike. omo. hahahhaha.

Cheers people!

2008-08-25T03:27:00.002+08:00

In the previous post, i dont bear grudges. i just wanted get irritating problems of my chest. Or else i'll be damn unhappy till dont know when, somethings just needs to be said out, so i'll feel better then bottling my feelings up. aint good for health.

2008-08-25T01:11:00.003+08:00

friday, i think was of the earlier days i woke up during the holidays hahaah. meet krstl at queensway shoopping centre, cos i wanted to check out the cost of teeshirt making. then went mac, haha, and met krystl there, had mac mac. hahaha, then we went primitve arts, she wanted to pierce her tongue, so i follow, i swear, many girls there damn chao ah lian one. Lols, then the guy there was like super funny, lol. i went her to pierce, okay, pretty scary went she did it, but okay lah. Not as bad as i thought, haha, then went home. hahah.
Saturday, em, woke up early, headed to JB, not much of a jam, so i didnt sleep in the car, then reached the workshop, went to eat a little bowl of noodle, haha. i think it might have been weird, cos where i go, i get stares. lol, i'm not pretty or anything. lmao. then headed to car polish, that we couldnt find out way for 2 whole hours of non stop running around, lol, so we stopped at taman sentosa there for lunch, had prawn noodle,my favourite food since young, especially that store. lol. then headed to shopping, bought loads of mooncakes. headed off, after lunch we finaly manage to find, suppose to be like 1 and half hours, ended up 3 hrs, sitting my butt there for it. WTH. lmao. then the guy there were like stealing glances, lol. ehhh, who cares? lmao. hahaha. i'm not pretty, probably think i'm a freako. lol! haha. then left the place at 5 plus pm. lol. headed to larkin market, bought load of food, all my favourite, hahaha. then headed to city square, woah, i love that shopping center, omggggg, the first thing when i went in, was i saw myyyyy, BASKIN ROBBINS, which of cos reminded me of Bigbang, sooo, i went to eat, haha, i was looking for applemint, i wanted applemint, cos it reminded me of seungri and taeyang, so i wanted to try, but when i got there, there wasn't any applemint, lol. so nevermind, i look citrus twist ice, super delicious, at least it still reminded me of Bigbang, hahaha. headed shopping, then bought a headband. haha, cos i wanted one. lol, headed to bu some food back for dinner, then we went off, then at the carpark, i swear it was the happiest moment of my life. hahaha. so i was walking out the elevator, then this guy, who look exactly like byul. omg, he was serious a lookalike, the face the height, excpet the hair, even dressing, was like byul, he turned to my directions, of cos, i wont really go notice, but then i turn also, he just smiled at me, lmao!, then i just turn around, i wasnt really thinking, so i turned away and didnt smile back, not long after that, i turn around and went eh?! lol, then i realised he looked like byul, then he and me keep stealing glances at each other, lmao. haha, when i turned he turned away, when he turn i turned away. lmao, even when i was in the car, i look at him, man, he and his friend was like driving a toyota camry. hahah. lmao, he smile is like super cute, yeoboo, know that byul's smile is my weakness, lol! dont ask why. hahaahha, okay, lol. stop braggin about him, he probably thinks i'm a weird girl only. hahaha. then went home, stupid Jam, so long 2 hrs, hahaha. so i slept in the car. heaaded home for dinner, watch the last bit of olympics, then used the computer, Dom msned me, then around 2.15am, he called me and we chatted until i was like about to sleep. Went at least he told me his problems, and told him mine, he is really a nice guy to confident my problems in. haha, so we chat until 3.then nothing much after that, chatted alittle but here and there, then i fell asleep, what a fruitful day. hhahaha.
Sunday, nothing muchh, i woke up at 2.30pm, lol, new house record, if olympics had a sleeping contest, i wont mind joining, then did nothing but slacked, lol. until now still slacking, wondering what to do tomorrow, since no one is accompanying me to the movie, i'm gonna be lonely, but no one cares. what to do, i'm not an important person.
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Sometimes, changes are hard to put in words, i'm pretty sure much of my changes you wont like, and i can forsee it already, the way i speak, the way i think, the way i do things, and the way i react, wasnt like me before. And, i like the way i am now, so, is like even if you take time to realise my change, and dont like it, i wont change back for you. IDK why, but i love myself like this, it was so much better then the last me, who didnt really like to stand up for myself and always pushed around, even thinking wise, it just wont be the me me, when i'm not happy, i just speak my mind. seriously, at most is a quarrell only, call me mean or selfish, because i wont mind. Sometime i feel, i might just turn into the b.tch next door one day. shrugs.
If i wanted to generally speak my mind it would be. i feel super left out, it feels ur new found friends are more important than me. Even if i dont really show it, but, it matters to me alot. then again, i'm in no position to say anything, cos u spend school time with them, being closer with them is natural, i dont know if i should be happy or sad, when ur block is so relaxed, but u didnt even asked me out once. Nevermind about that. All this time when we both were online, You didnt even bother to speak to me, then i know you are going to say that, cos u dont strike conversations, was it so difficult to strike a convo with me, dont u have things to tell me. Maybe u dont, cos like you said, you only read my blog. Anyways, i've said my mind and done my part. just let it flow,i'm happy at where i am at, i was just dissappointed yesterday about the conversation.
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Okay, i got rid of what i wanted to say in my heart, and i'm glad its off my chest, Dom and Yeoboo, was really kind to hear some of my grumbling, sorry, i'm a naggy auntie, thats why i'm mrs ajumma mah, hahah. I want to talk to xing, but my internet connection wont connect, i dont even know if i can post it up today, ahhaha

2008-08-24T01:57:00.001+08:00

Post everything tomorroooooooooow, for now.
I WANT APPLEMINT I WANT APPLEMINT, AND I WANT SEUNGRI.
haha.

2008-08-22T01:28:00.004+08:00

Nothing to blooooog today. hahah. maybe got more tomorrow?
Lmaoooo, off to queensway in the afternoon. haha.
Talking about birthdays now, hahaha. i cannot wait for yeoboo's birthday, hahah.
Just now we were talk about younger guys and whether we would date them. hahah.
Now talking about food. hah, always seems we and yeobo have endless things to talk about uh. haha. i miss talking like this to my past people, but i guess, i'm not so dumb to so now, -sigh-.
BE STRONG. haha.
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I dont think i ever wanna fall in love again. haha, just not my cup of tea, being single is sooo much fun. besides, i dont find happiness in relationship. maybe cos i'm just over independant. i love myself alot. probably thats why. hah.
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we talk like strangers and even act like one. what kind of shit is this.
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addicted to BB songs. omg... pure hotness.
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!#$$%^. DJ jay must have kidnapped LISA, why in the world isnt she back. Damn DJ, Bug off.

2008-08-21T01:21:00.002+08:00

OMONA~ LOL.
Anyways, i really got nothing write here.
But, i wanted to say.
HAPPY BELATED 2 WEEKS TO MY SON!(a.k.a Teri)
lmao. i just realise our family has become weird. cos all the gender mixed up!
Actually. Not that difficult. lmao. see
Xing- umma(married to appa.)
Me- Appa(Married to umma.
Ting- daughter( Married to byul)
Teri- son(Married to moon. actually affair.)
Not that difficult bah. LOL.
Few things i realised over the hours, while looking at pics.
1.) BYUL, has highly kissable lips, that i wanna kiss. : D
2.) MOON, has a thin Side profile, darn, he has super thin waist.
3.) APPA, has nice biceps.
4.) INKYU, is like super pretty.
5.) TOMO, is freakin hot and photogenic
6.) MING,is being extrememly cute.
Ting, is going hide byul from me. hahahaha.
Nah, i wont steal him. hahahahah. He is yours!
Currently, talking to yeobo, and trying to find out why taeyang is mr.porn. LMAO. hahahhhahaha. and i cannot seem to pronounce Byon JANG MOON surname. LOL. i pronounce it as biooong jangmoon. lmao, whats uo with me this few days! Must be mad already. haha. Still in the mist of designning my tshirt lmao. hahahha! i cannot wait when we have more members. hahaha.
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Sometimes, things keep me hanging, thinking when people get new friends, do they really abandon the old ones? just like item, when you first got it, you tend to treat it like a treasure, but once something new appears, you just throw it aside, what value has there left in that thing?. I'm a person, not a thing, i have freaking feelings, i'm not just a animal who u can push here and there, neither am i a toy, i'm a human for goodness sake. Just bug off.
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dont know what have got into me recently, its just not me me.

2008-08-20T20:54:00.004+08:00

SPECIAL DAY FOR ME. HAHAHAHA. DONT KNOW WHY, I FEEL SPECIAL.

COS

ITS HAPPY 2 AND A HALF WEEK TO YEOBO AND ME. HAHAH.

ALSO TO DDAL AND ME.

HAHAHAHHA.

Its the first time someone reminded me of how long we known each other for, and i didnt realise that time could pass so fast, its like only 2 and half weeks, but it seems we know each other for a super long time.

Put bad things aside from last night, oh wells, i woke up earlier today, hahahah, how weird when i sleep late, i wake up early and when i sleep early, i wake up late, hahahahha. When i woke up. yeobo left me a message in the morning! hahaha, ask me i so early wake up uh. Actual fact, i'm still sleeping, Na twaegiiii. hahaha.

Nothing much, crapping alot with yeobooo. hahaha.

And its not DJ lisa, its DJ jay, !%^!@#$$% lmao!

Update later, if got anything.

I dreamt of BIGBANG last night, and also designing tee shirt, maybe cos i'm thinking tooo much

2008-08-20T03:46:00.001+08:00

For once in my life, i felt a urge of saying, i love you to my close friends, well, i have little friends only, Although too many say, they always say i'm hard to get along with. But this friends who stayed by me, they are really with me when i need them. No matter whether its is spazzing, sad, happy or whenever i face a problem, they just turn up all of a suddenly, like knowing i'm down, they just poof appear. haha, now days, its great knowing i have people there for you. hah, and you probably know who i'm talking about. hah, i dont know why, i have the urge of telling you, that i'm glad i have you all.

XING,TERI,TING,JIAQI

I LOVE YOU ALL.

Yunki i love you,Seungri i love you, Mayguss i love you.

staying at home this few days, made me thinking about people beside me. Now, i finally realise, the meaning of treasuring them. lol. i sound corny, but who cares. hahahaha.sometimes is not that i dont want to find friends, but having a bad experience with friends, makes me wanna run away from them, but then, when i have new friend, they are seriously good to me thats why, i love you all! Although i'm weird and stuff, but they never think the same. lols.

Didnt do much today, hahaha, em, cos i woke up late, at 2.30? LMAO, and when i woke up, the first thing was head to toilet, obvious right. then watch TV the whole damn day. lol! nothing to do lah. lol. from tomorrow onwards, i'm going to find work. hahaha, help yeobo find too, haha. then, had dinner, talking with yeobo and my son and daughters. lol! hahahah, then dont know what happen to me,i just talk to my ~~lover~~ before just now, for who knows why, lol. and he said he misses me here and there. lol. okay whatever, speaking the truth, only when i'm sad i miss him, other than that, he is nothing, cos of the way he hurt me. LOL. then i msed in to the Damn it Coolktime, for 2 day consectively, the Shyting DJ doesnt wan to read my SMS, Shyt him lah, WTF is wrong with him uh.forget it, talking about him makes my blood boil, i'm sickly enough, dont need him to make me more angerier. lol! then talk to my yeobooo. i love her alot. hahaha.

Then we post at forums until 400 post. haha, and we congrats each other. lmao. super funny.

Me: HAppy 400th post yeobo!

Xing: Happy 400th post seobang!

We both cute right. haha. This girl is super looooved by me. hahahah. She went offline leee. hahaha.

Okay, regarding sleep late in the night, is because i woke up late, and i cannot sleep alot, cos it is not good for me. Not that i dont want to sleep. lol. Dont say me till like that can. Lol, besides i got things to do. why say me till like that, everytime i ddont wan pick fight, some statement you say want to make me pick fight. lol. want control already control, These days i also dont talk much to you, Cos you dont want to start convo first, i also dont wanna keep starting. So, dont talk lor. lol. Noow u come find fault with me sleeping late. Lol.

Anyways, i'm still designing custom tees till so late. cos i got a few i wanna design, and i need it by sat, cos i can make the tees in malaysia.If not i wont be sleeping this late too. Try be understanding. LOL.

Off to bed.

i'm like a freaking controller, who can change mood easily. lmao~

2008-08-18T02:50:00.003+08:00

Peeka boo! I'm super bored at this hour now. Hah, and my back is aching, but since i havent updated for 3 days, i shall update. Nothing much really. hah, em, friday woke up super early at 6.30am, cooked meals for later on then headed out to sentosa, Didnt really talk much with mayguss, because they were playing in the water with her friends, so i went to tan, didnt really wanna bother her. It not what, but it weird hanging out with ur friend's friend(well, at least for me...), so yeah, did my own things, thought i still felt uncomfortable and stuff, i was trying to expell it. LOL. em, when to show, meet my senior there, hah. so coincidental. then bahte, bused home, cos i thought i was gonna be super late to meet xing they all, haha, ended up, met teri, and we waited for sing, cox she was watching Olympics, hahahaha, then we went to the flyer there, super pretty, its my first time seeing it, hah, then went to popeyes to eat, also first time, hah, em, tasty, better then KFC, haha. then guess what, we were chatting away, so i looked around the place, and i saw this taeyang lookalike. He really look like taeyang from the side, and when he smile too. OMG, lol. even xing and teri saw lor. LOL. And i cannot get him out of my mind. LMAO. when we went out recording, we saw him too. LMAO. hahahhaah. okay, lol! then we practise what to say for radio. so no mistake. then we watched shows. and the dumb DJ called. lol. he keep nagging at us, not noissy then is ask me to shut my friends up, if not is why i late pick up his call, what the shit he wants sia. Then finally time to record, we went to sit at the carpark there. record finish, he called us tell us our performace is terrible, if he is sooo good, ask him to sing lah, KNS, piss people off only. IDIOT. I hate him, he faster vanish lah. Bloody ass. This kind of DJ, No one wanna listen lah. then we went home, haha, loads of fun that night. girls, we should head out again one of these days. hah.
Saturday, went to JB, haha, shopped the whole day, and my whole body was like burning. lol. sun burn. lmao. reached home around 10 plus. ahaah, talked to xing and teri they all.
Sunday, nothing much, haa, morning when woodlands, had a delicious and cheap lunch. haha, then left, headed to chonpang, cos we needed to get somethings done. then back home, awhile later, out again. Had dinner with my relatives, and then headed to my aunt's house to watch table tennis, but Sg lost to china, but it was expected and SG team did do us proud already, which is good. haha. then came home, chatted with Xing, hahaah, em, joked around. hahaha.
i miss my friends alot. sigh. haha. nvm. hahha. nothing much done, and i wana be slack off my butt. aint hearing radio for 3 days, cos i dont wanna hear the freakinf DJ, who really pissed me off like mad. Lisa come back faster. hahahaha. ummmm. when u alot of things in common, you have really plenty of things o talk to about, like xing and the rest. but sometimes in a different case, even if we have things in common, no one speaks. -sigh- how to change it. Cos we are just tooo different. me going to sleep nights people!

2008-08-14T03:07:00.006+08:00

CORDELIA HYUNAE MOKI-TOMOKO RODRIGUES MARYANNE

Aint that name long, but well, its mine, hahah! cordelia rodrigues maryanne is given by my parents, hyunae by me, and moki by teri&xing, tomoko has a meaning behind it. Tsktsk, nice name right. hah! em, didnt nothing today, only slacked. Woke up at 2pm, cos i slept at 3am the other day. hah. Then woke up, used computer, my brother brought lunch for me, watching olympics, then watch alot of shows on Bigbang, gosh, i'm attracted to them also, hah! Hotties, hah, then one day like past so quickly like that, was chatting with ting(finally got to chat with her), teri and Xing, on friday, going where. Em, then watch more shows. hah. I'm now into Bigbang documentry. So many episodes to watch. Hah, something to keep me busy i guess? Hah. em. one day of holiday just pass like this. hah, how fast. Busy chit chatting with Xing, and watching BigBang documentry too. Hah. and its 3am, so i'm heading off to bed, cos i wanna wake up early can reformat my comp if i do wake up lah. haha. Needa make Ezlink card too, dies. hahahaha.

Reminds me, today i dedicated haruharu again. hah. And i used tomoko. haha, feels weird when he calls me by that name. Then i put Ast1 forum. LOL. Then i told xing.

She said.

1. he reads everything.

2.he reads the dedication but not ast1

3. he doesnt read at all.

I said.

1.i wont burn the studio if he reads 1.

2.i will just burn the equipments inside if he reads 2.

3.I just burn the studio down if he reads 3.

Lmao. In the end, he read all, but he left out the Fan word. turn out to be, i hope ast1 will join our ast1 SG forum. LMAO. Who wont wish for their idols to join the forum?

Nights everyone.

Replies to tags.

Yvonne: Poly where got enjoy life lah. LOL. Hah. See yourself know le.

Ting: Haha, Mrs Byul( Mrs.Poo), yes yes, thanks for being there for me, Cos i'll be there for you too! Just dont elope anymore. haha!

Xing: Ajumma is super old can. TskTsk. HAHAHAA. I love the family too. Appa~

Mayguss: LMAO. I not jealous, for what. LOL. she got nothing better to do mah?

Teri: i cracked up on that tooooo. LOL. Tu morr. Woots` *Thinks weirdly*

JiaQi: Hellooooooo, Hahah *Waves to you like a mad woman too*

2008-08-13T14:11:00.000+08:00

i woke up super late today, was suppose to post this last night, but my internet connect disconnected, lol~ so post now
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Hello.Although dominic give me morning call, I didnt attend school today. Hah! but i went school at 3 cos i wanted to reformat my comp. Then when i got there, they said, sorry too late, cannot reformat liao! Pek chek, then he say, you come back tomorrow lah, i confirm reformat for you,like that, I also know! LOL!, then i went, nevermind la. Lol, then i went to foodcourt eat, last time i will be eating at there for this semester. Sad. 3 weeks no western food. hah. then went to class, i slipped in and no one noticed. LMAO!.
then i went to talk to jolin, then hongkai who was beside me said, eh u in class meh, i whole day didnt see u. then i went. i just came only. Lmao! then he went, u acting cute is it. Huh. act cute onlyyy. Lol. hah. (p.s he meant i was acting cute by coming school when class ended),Lmao. hahah. then took photo with the class, awww, i'm gonna to miss them that much. I cried yesterday watching the class video. Lmao, i'm a cry baby lah. Although i dont feel as close to the class as before, but i cannot help but think of the good times we did have together. Then went out with jolin, Xiujing, Dominic, Kamleong, leona, we went to watch money not enough 2, Quiet funny, but, lets say, its more sad then funny, i cried alot, infact i think all 4 of the girls cried. When it ended, my eyes were swollen. Lmao.Why cry will so jia lat. Lmao. then we went mini toon, then i bused back. Lmao, remind me i needa make a new ezlink card. and i cannot let my mum know about it, cos she will kill me. -sigh-, came home, talked to jia qi online, hah, then talked to my umma! lol. she whole day not online. hah. then chat online. around 10 plus, i called in for dedication, lmao, the stupid DJ damn idiot one lor, keep telling me, dont need to promote forum, dont need promote forum, cos he say one of the fridays already going to promote so today dont need. Then i was like oh is it. lmao, stupid one leh, if it was DJ lisa she also wont retrict, you restrict for what. Then before calling in, me, xing and teri, was thinking of a name for me, cos that time, teri used back her name, the DJ ask her give others a chance, then we think and think, they give me name called moki! Lmao, cos tomoki, so we used moki, then when i was on the phone with the Dj i was trying hard not to laugh, cos it was hilarious lah. then xing and teri say, next time they going to call me moki~ lol!, then i went to watch gymnastic, and the japanese guy was super cute, hiroyuki tomita, super adorable lah, and his 19 years only lor. Japan got sliver for gymnastic. hah. then watch Big Bang's performance, i went to find their performance with wonder girls. Lmao. hah. then i watched music drama and coffee prince by them, super funny. Hah.when to look for japanese name, hah, and i found one super smiliar to tomoki's one, which is tomoko. LOL, female version. Next time call me tomoko! lol. then chat with xing until 2 then we both slept. LOL. sleepy.

I cannot wait for friday, morning going suntanning, even going out xing, teri they all, yippe!
I'm going take loads of photos!
And i'm addicted to Haruharu. hah.

2008-08-11T01:30:00.006+08:00

I'm like soooo tired now. had loads of convo with Xing just now, and we both cracked up.
Cos xing was worrying about the Radio broadcast we are gonna have on friday, so i said, if she worried alot, appa will worry then go find tomo!
Then we came up with this convo~
its like hilarious. LOL
China has weird ways of pronouncing things
tomo becomes tuo mor
1.2.3.4 back becomes 1,2,3,4 bakke
LMAO, when we heard it, we both kept laughing.

Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
thn he will go find tomo,then not my fault le,haha
xing` comeback!
he doesn't show much reaction . i dont think he was listening man!,*grabs appa* don't go to tuo mor
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
hahahah,tuo mor sounds so awful!
xing` comeback!
ahahha
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
sounds like tuooo more,LOL
xing` comeback!
LOLOL!!,i didn't even think of that!,*cracks up*
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
*pervy thinking*,lmAO,influence by taeyannnng,hahahaha
xing` comeback!
ahhah,so is tomo tuo-ing more now?,lmao
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
noooooooo,lol
xing` comeback!
ahahhah
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
Why would he tuooooo more,LOL
xing` comeback!
i dunno???,hahahha,you should know,lmao
Cooordelia,hyunae. Its just a simple wish` It never erases like tattoos
sounds super awful!,ask appa go tuo mor lah
xing` comeback!
no ehh,i will shy,HAhahhahha

Haha, i couldnt stop laughing!
Oh well, nothing must to blog actually~
just tha A'st1 forum are going on radio broadcast okay?! and all a'st1 fans must support, or i'll knock ur head out. LOL!. I seriously cannot wait, because i'll be going to sentosa on friday. Hahah, hope fully there are not many people. Why would a fatty like me go suntanning, super funny~
rushed off this morning, and i abondon xing, i'm so bad. Hah, no wonder my only solution is tuo mor, LMAO!
Then headed out with my parents to get things, and i got a box of mochi for myself. Pwhahaha.
i'm about to fall asleep already.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MAYGUSS.
I wanted to blog on 10 august one, but i got carried away. Hah, anyways i did wish you early in the morning~ haha, accompanied by and audio clip.

I have 2 more school schooling days, And xing has her holidays already. LOL! no fair right. Hyunae hwaiting~ 2 days more 2 days more.~

I'm glued to the olympics. even my mum nags me, bu what to do, i love the olympics it is like once in 4 years man~. LOL.
Whenever i see a basketball team i feel depress, cos i'm shot, and they are tall~

Teri was super funny, she told me she dreamt of herself with youngseang on WGM. Haha~ eh, i also wan to be in that dream with tomo! I hope she dreams more! haha~
Teri, dream with me inside.

And i think ting is not back from eloping! where is sheeeee?

okay, i just type finish, and the internet has connection again, so i'm gonna post and sleep. Goodnights~
i'm going to change my blog song to haruharu, cos i'm in love with it!

2008-08-09T23:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE
LOL. ABIT TOO LATER LAH, BUT NEVERMIND!

2008-08-09T02:29:00.002+08:00

Hmms, just a thinking before i sleep. I happen to go to someone's blog today. And somethings someone told me. well, all i got to say it that, why cannot she be one face, always being two faced. act sweetly infront of people, yet behind their back, just like a devil, this kind of people is worse then my ex-bestfriend, i hate this kind of people. Dont act goody when u cannot. pfft. day spoiler.

2008-08-09T02:13:00.000+08:00

okay, meanwhile my dedication is uploading, i shall blog. hah, stayed up for the olympics just now, i actually wanted to sleep, cos i'm dizzy, today took alot of photos with my class, but some didnt get saved, sigh, nevermind, moday take again. Schools coming to an end, thats means, w25F is coming to an end too. I'm going to miss that class, although, coflict come but now it has been gone, so we should be evil to each other anymore. Class was fun. Really fun! after my heavy school day, i went bugis alone, collect mayguss present, then went to buy mochis and cream puff, then went to 3rd level to buy box, but then when i put the present in it, the box was big, the present was small, then i felt so stupid, so i put my cream puff in, but it still looked empty, then i recorded something in a memory card, cos i really couldnt think of any, so i did it, after hat, i felt stupid, cos it was too funny, then placed it in, went to 418 coffee shop there to eat, then i went Ntuc to buy sweets so it could fill the box up. put in, look so much fuller. LOL. went to mayguss mum shop to pass it to her mum, so she could pass it to mayguss. Then headed off home, watched olympic, and i love sarah brightman's voice lah, my inspiration too. hah, her voice is absolutely perfect. Watched until like 12 plus? LOL. i didnt even know it was repeating. bwhahaha. Then talked online to teri, Xing was watching olympics. Then teri went to watch we got married, aw, i havent watch 2 episodes.-sigh-, talked to mayguss, glad she like the present. Then talked to xing, cos she finally finished the olympics, hah!
Talked to kayla, minsoh only. Hah, SM auditions are going to their place. LOL. how unfair. haha, i dedicated to songs today. And i learnt how to cuts songs. thanks to xing. I looooove her soooo much. Oh yes, Teri and Ting toooo, because, they are just so lovable! Hah.
i'm going to sleep soon already, flies off with my hubby...weeeee.
We should all watch Big bang's MV. its.... Damn nice.
Nights.

Bigbang's haru haru: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q8dLWQwreLA
Mayguss dedication: http://www.megaupload.com/?d=WCJINCQJ

2008-08-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

Ahh, highest peak of my mood now. Seriously nothing can beat today in my life at this period of time.
All our A'st1 dedictions got read out for haiming's birthday. Althought i felt like throwing my computer down the toilet bowl. Cos, i couldnt spazz with the rest, then went the song and dedications ended, it miracously worked! Pfft, how not to angry?!
But when i got back on, we could have call in dedications, so i called it, finally i got through. First time i'm on live radio lah. Haha, then dedicated Bigbang song to Ting, xing and teri they all, also to my other friends. I was like nervous on the radio. LOL. and sounded like a total dork, i'm gonna post the links up later. LOL!. HAHAH.
Told xing i sounded totally stupid on the phone, then she said, no, just some connection error. then i told her, cos tomo was disturbing me!! our house phone old already, ask tomo buy new one! LOL!! Haha.
Girls. imagine. A'st1 wives family.
xing- appa (jin)
me- umma (Tomo)
Teri- Daughter (moon)
Ting- Son (byul)
??- Elderson(Kyu)
??-Grandmother(ming)
HAHAHA. super funny. LOL!
Bigbang's album will be out today 080808.

Learn to take things at stride. This will cure my illness, We live a lifetime for once only, now, i dont wanna die early. People are still out there trying to help me and comforting me. Why waste their effort, No matter how sad or depressed i am, they are always there for me, Those, are my true friends. People who dont have chance to live a good life like me wants to, But me, I have good life, but i dont, What a let down, i have many things i wana achieve, come to think about it, i dont wanna die. No one wants to solve a problem, it'll never be solved. And me wont bother too. Cos, i wanna lead a happy life. My new promises to myself.
Never cry;unless it something terrible.
Never say die; cos u dont wanna die, remember?
Always be happy; smile alot!

Me gonna sleep my with my hubby already. Nights

shesleeps@1214am.

2008-08-07T18:56:00.000+08:00

We should all rewatch animal house with A'st1 in it.
ep1: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEOpFEKvblc&feature=related ; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rfyen074t3E&feature=related ;

ep2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnvwFf-Ju1g&feature=related; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2VURb1YHxnc&feature=related ;

When u feel down, just watch these, it'll make you happy. Back with 2 more episodes later. hah!
Tonight, I'm dedicating songs again... wooohoo, lol, must save money on my meals already. Hah! Cant wait for holidays, although no one is gonna spent it with me, but at least i get loads of rest. Maybe i'll get a job as a relieve teacher in De la selle. See how.

2008-08-07T13:22:00.000+08:00

i'm sooo sleepy. But i just woke up not long. listening to China radio, cos today is hyming's birthday, and there is a special radio recording on him~ yeah. So i'm hearing it. haha, haiming's girlfriends are haxing, that statement is so sweet, just like Suju girlfriends are E.L.F, DBSk girlfriend is casseopia. ahah. super sweet, okays, me shall stop spazzing already.

maybe heading to bugis later, collect something, sometimes, i wonder, do u even bother and care. sigh.

I'm spazzing with xing on what to dedicate for our hyming oppa tonight! Pwhaha. update later.

2008-08-07T01:06:00.000+08:00

jajajajaaaaaaang. LOL. me and my childish ways.i just finished reopening my blog, with a whole new twist[?], hah, hmms, my dedication got read out today as well!. Yesterday i dedicated 1.2.3.4 back, today i dedicated You. I'm addicted to A'st1.
Talked to xing, teri, and ting, in the forum. These girls, are super fun to mix around with. yipppes. hah.
must as i feel dissappointed and being on an emotional roller coaster ride this past few days, i'm glad, i'm now not alone to pour my feelings out to my friend, yes, Friends.
Super thanks, to kayla, Minsoh, maggie, christine, xing, teri, ting, yvonne. Who tried hard to make me feel better at least.
Even the most smallest little unnoticable things u all said and do, had cheered me up. If u did not notice,notice now. Pwhahaha. I really, love you guys[ladies i meant] alot.Thanks for being there.i'm super grateful.
I need to bollow tangxinfengbao, anyone has it... lend me*inncent eyes*. hah. I'm to lazy to download off the internet, i wanna watch with my mummy. hah.
hmms. i post more tomorrow. i'm off to sleep with my hubby XD

shesleeps@1.25am